December 31, 2012

The USA is hours away from the “fiscal cliff,” when tax hikes and spending cuts automatically take effect. On the stock exchange it is the last trading day of the year. It could be that stocks will fall for the 6^th straight day, although the market is up 6 percent for the year. The regular NFL season is over, and the playoffs begin. Today is the last day of Bethany’s visit as she heads back to LA this evening if her flight does not face a weather delay. It has been great to have her here in Springfield. She sang in all the sanctuary services yesterday.

Hebrews 1

“God, after He spoke long ago to the fathers in the prophets in many portions and in many ways, in these last days has spoken to us in His Son, whom He appointed heir of all things, through whom also He made the world.” (Verses 1-2) These “last days” have now extended almost 2,000 years. God still speaks in Jesus, and through the Holy Spirit, God the three-in-one. We are fellow heirs as sons and daughters of God, and as this world is passing away, our inheritance is forever, world without end, amen.

It is sustaining to know that we are heirs of God, “joint heirs with Jesus as we travel this sod.” I gave to Audrey for Christmas the first season of Downton Abbey, a British PBS series about life on an estate in the early 1900s. One driving issue involves the heirs. Two were killed on the Titanic, a distant cousin is next in line, etc. Whatever happens in this life, we know that for eternity we belong to the King of kings and Lord of lords. And, there is more room in God’s estate, room for everyone we could bring to the table in the years that remain. Also, in God’s economy, those who serve are at the top, those who live for themselves are at the bottom.

It is the season for organizing one’s life. I received the forms from our tax preparer to get ready for the 2012 returns. I always intend to do a thorough job of organizing at the end of the year, then end up doing just the minimal required for reporting, etc. It would be helpful to prepare a balance sheet and a record of all important aspects of family business. I also need to update our will, which we prepared in 1987.

On this last day of 2012, and the first day of the rest of my earthly life, guide my steps Lord. I honor You and submit to Your will and purposes. Empower me to do that which furthers Your kingdom and maximizes the stewardship of my life.

December 30, 2012

Cliffhangers is the new series we begin today at Wesley. Kerner will preach this first installment on the financial cliff, teaching about stewardship and life in Christ. Having preached 9 times this past week I am ready for a break, and a Sunday to simply hang out and encourage folks. I expect a somewhat lighter attendance today.

Psalm 98

“O sing to the Lord a new song, for He has done wonderful things, His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him.” (Verse 1) The 9 verses of this Psalm are admonitions to praise God, to shout joyfully to the Lord, because He has won the victory, and He will come to judge the world with righteousness. I will sing joyfully to Him this morning in 4 worship services. This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!

Bethany and I shared a father-daughter dinner last night at Rebecca’s Grill downtown. We ate delicious food and enjoyed good conversation.  I spent most of yesterday working on 2013 Spring Training material, and will work on it as much as possible today. The Cherokee is still not operational, so the flight this afternoon with Hiram has to be postponed.  

My soul blesses the Lord this morning. Thank you Lord for your word,  and for this chapter of my life. May I praise you and point people to “the rock that is higher than I” as you are the King and Lord of all. I am your servant, ready to do your will. Guide my hands, heart, mind and feet today that I might minister your grace to many.

 

December 29, 2012

The fiscal cliff looms large! Congress is back in Washington and has until Monday to make a deal. Our new sermon series is called Cliffhangers and capitalizes upon the publicity. I do not think very often or very deeply about politics, economics and national strategies; however it seems to me that the reason we have this financial cliff results from the congress recognizing that something must be done about our spiraling national debt, and nobody wants to make the hard decisions to raise taxes and cut spending. So the republicans advocate cutting spending, and the democrats push raising taxes. The incredible national debt will crush future generations in America. Very few people have the courage to legislate in ways that cause pain to constituents now, to correct the system providing for future financial health.

On a personal level, every one of us is faced daily with decisions that will either bring current satisfaction or future benefit. For example, to eat a piece of candy now is pleasant, and it contributes to weight gain which is costly. To take on a second job or additional hours is demanding and difficult, and results in income and resources to benefit in the future. A person can be obsessive in either direction. My goal is to be balanced, mindful of the implications of all my actions. There is a place for the enjoyment and reward of a piece of candy. There is a time to work harder and longer. Finding the balance is the key.
 
Acts 10

Cornelius, a centurion at Caesarea, is a man “who feared God with all his household, and gave many alms to the Jewish people, and prayed to God continually.” (Verse 2) In a vision he saw an angel who told him that his prayers and alms had “ascended as a memorial before God.” He was told to dispatch some men to Joppa and find Peter. As the men approached Joppa, Peter was praying on a rooftop before a meal, and as he was hungry he saw a vision of unclean animals being lowered on a sheet. To the voice which told him to kill and eat he replied “by no means, Lord, for I have never eaten anything unholy and unclean.” (Verse 14) The voice then said, “What God has cleansed, no longer consider unholy.”

Peter was greatly perplexed, just as the men from Cornelius knocked on his door. He went with them, asked Cornelius what he wanted, then shared the gospel of Jesus Christ with them. The Holy Spirit fell upon them as he spoke, and they spoke in tongues. “And all the circumcised believers who had come with Peter were amazed, because the gift of the Holy Spirit had been poured out upon the Gentiles also.” (Verse 45) Peter then ordered them to be baptized, and they invited him to stay on for a few days.

This chapter reminds me of several things: God speaks to people with visions; God directs people to take action; God honors obedience; God surprises people with new insights; the outpouring of the Holy Spirit is unpredictable and recognizable.  The application of this for me today: Be open to how God will lead me; work diligently in the direction he is leading me (spring 2013 material – The Basics of Grace) Remember that God honors prayers and alms and families that honor Him. Lead the church in greater fields of witness and fruitfulness.

Guide me today, Most Holy Lord! I am yours. My path is under your direction. I know your eye is upon me, your hand is guiding my steps. Guard me from distraction. Use me as your servant.

December 28, 2012

Winter has fully arrived! It is one of my favorite seasons! I especially enjoy inclement conditions, unless I have to travel. Today we have a funeral at Wesley, and then Brian and I will do some filming for the “Spring Training – The Basics of Grace” series. For the next few days this will be the focus of my work – writing, preparing, filming for this series for Lent, 2013.

Matthew 9:1-17

Jesus calls Matthew to be his disciple, and then dines at his house with his friends and associates. The Pharisees saw this and asked his disciples, “Why is your Teacher eating with the tax-gatherers and sinners?” When Jesus “heard this, He said, ‘It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick. But go and learn what this means, ‘I desire compassion, and not sacrifice’ for I did not come to call the righteous but sinners.’” How does this relate to the ministry to which God has called me? To the work of Wesley UMC in Springfield? To the United Methodist Church? It is so easy for religious movements to become institutions that exclude rather than reach out. May this never be true of those with whom I have influence.

Guide me today Lord as I write, think, plan and lead with your words for my life today fully in view.

December 27, 2012

Psalm 10

Before I read this Psalm, I closed my eyes and prayed. I mentioned to God how I have been through a season of not feeling his presence or hearing his voice directly. I then opened the Bible and began at verse one which says: “Why dost Thou stand afar off, O Lord? Why dost Thou hide Thyself in times of trouble?” I immediately had a sense of God’s understanding and watchfulness over me. This was not a coincidence. In my spiritual formation I have experienced seasons like this of pressing forward without any dramatic or visible signs or words from God, and then suddenly a clear indication that God knows exactly where I am, what I am thinking and He is leading me every step of the way, every inclination that I pursue.

I worked long and hard yesterday and it was fulfilling. In the morning at the office I developed sermons for Jan 27 and Feb 3, What the Bible says about friendship and romance. I made 2 hospital calls, led a worship planning meeting, and met with a couple about their February wedding. The day was capped off with dinner here at our house with the Collettes plus two boyfriends, Grayson (Shannon) and Charlie ( Lauren). I went to bed around 10 as the games were still going strong. I feel rested and ready for this day, which includes future oriented planning. Kerner and I will meet for breakfast downtown. This afternoon I will work with Brian on the Spring 2013 material.

Thank you Lord for Psalm 10 this morning. Guide me as I journey by faith into this day, seeking to follow your will, express your love, be your pastor in a dark and broken world. Lead me forward by faith as I serve you with joy.

December 26, 2012

This morning I have a fresh and new sense of the season. I have put the trash out, the great Christmas wrapping trash, and feel that we have had a very good Christmas celebration. It was great to host David and Danelle and Bethany is still visiting for a few more days. I am not preaching on Sunday, and will use this week and the New Year’s Day holiday to work hard on Spring 2013. I will also spend time clearing files and getting organized, something I annually intend to do at year-end, but rarely accomplish. We usually travel or entertain company during these days after Christmas, leaving me away from desks at office and home.

It is 4:50 am, and I have been awake for awhile feeling pretty rested and ready for the day. I will work today - in the office this morning, worship planning at 2, wedding consultation at 5. The Collettes will come over for dinner tonight, a late Christmas dinner, or as they call today in England, Boxing Day. 

I Sam 3:15-21 (A Guide to Prayer – week’s theme “I am yours)

Following his experience of hearing God’s voice but not recognizing it until Eli instructed him to respond “Speak, Lord, for Thy servant is listening” Samuel lay down until morning. When questioned by Eli, Samuel was hesitant to reveal the vision God had given him yet due to Eli’s insistence, he told him. Upon hearing that his house would be severely judged “forever for the iniquity which he knew, because his sons brought a curse on themselves and he did not rebuke them” Eli responded “It is the Lord; let Him do what seems good to Him.” (Verse 18) This response is similar but very different from Mary’s response to Gabriel, as she said “behold the bondslave of the Lord; be it done to me according to your word.” (Luke 2:38)  Eli, aware of his misdoings, was acknowledging God’s sovereign power to judge; Mary, willing to yield and serve God in her future, was submitting to God’s will. As I preached on Christmas Eve, it is my prayer that I and all with whom I have influence will also say yes to God’s plan and His promises. 

Last night I began to read the biography of Einstein given to me by Bethany. It is interesting to begin thinking about physics and science as it applies to Einstein, and to have his biography on my nightstand. This is a new a fresh topic for me to consider, as I have been reading lately about World War I. This morning I will read a letter received recently from Ron Kessler. It is now 5:47 and all of a sudden my body is weary again. This sometimes is the result of arising early, but as I simply move forward through the day, my body adapts.

Guide me today, most Holy Lord, as I am your bond servant, ready to do your will. Guard me from distractions; use me to accomplish your purposes. Thank you for your word, and the gift of your Holy Spirit.

 

December 21, 2012

It is beautiful outside, with a dusting of snow that blew in yesterday. Bethany will fly here from Los Angeles this afternoon, as David and Danelle drive here from O’Fallon tonight. For me, it has been a slow adjustment over the 5 years that Audrey and I have lived in this house in Springfield that this is not “home” for my adult children. They do not live here. They did not grow up here. They come here to visit. Bethany has not been here for 12 months. Even though there is a room in the lower level with her furniture in it, her home is in California, she has a California drivers license and will pay taxes this year as a resident of California. And, this is all very good. I am pleased with how our children have grown up and are making their way in the world, which makes their visit this weekend even more special. 

Mark 9:1-13

Jesus took Peter, James and John up to a high mountain by themselves. “He was transfigured there before them; and his garments became radiant and exceedingly white, as no launderer on earth can whiten them. And Elijah appeared to them along with Moses; and they were talking with Jesus.” (Verses 2-4) This was a pivotal experience for this inner circle of three disciples. The reality that Jesus was the son of God, acknowledged by the law, represented by Moses, and the prophets, represented by Elijah  gave Peter, James and John the confirmation that would carry them to their deaths as confident witnesses to His person and assurance to the reality of their own salvation.

For John Wesley, the experience that transformed him was Aldersgate. For Billy Graham, it was when he made a commitment to trust the Bible as the word of God. For me, it was an August Saturday night in 1974 at the youth for Christ meeting on Anderson’s farm when I said “yes, Lord” and invited Christ to be born in me, that I might have eternal life and serve Him with my earthly life. I did not feel any emotional responses or see visions, but as I drove away from that farm I knew that there had been a significant change in Bruce Baxter, and that this would impact the rest of my life. It has. I joyfully look forward to the presence of God each day, and serving Him with all that I am.

On this the shortest day of the year, with the sun low in the southern sky, may I experience the Son rising in my heart, the transfiguration of a common life, now 56 years old into an uncommon follower of Christ, in a world in which darkness still prevails, but in which the Light of the World has come, born in Bethlehem, risen from the dead, and reigning in the hearts and lives of His servants around the world. Come Lord Jesus, come.  

December 20, 2012

Winter has returned to Missouri! Yesterday a team of 7 pastors, active and retired related to Wesley, deployed into the community of Springfield to share communion with homebound members. Last night our choir caroled at area nursing homes. Today our Children’s leaders will deliver items to students at York Elementary. God is working through the people called Methodists who serve through Wesley UMC here in windy, snowy, cold Springfield Missouri!

December 15, 2012

Newtown Connecticut, Sandy Hook Elementary was the scene yesterday of a mass murder – 22 children, 6 adults including the principal. “Evil visited this community today” said the governor. A 20 year old former student of the school shot and killed his mother at their home, then drove to the school and around 9:30 am entered and massacred 28 people. Apparently he took his own life. This is unimaginable and the work of darkness and evil. Jesus Christ came to give his life, bearing on the cross the full brunt of the horrors of humanity, the sins of the world, including the murder of children. The news reports of this story remind me of the power of God’s love in the face of unmitigated evil.

Today I will visit a high-security prison in Licking Missouri to visit a man convicted of a crime whose victims still suffer from his actions. I will offer the presence of Christ and the power of God’s word to this man. I will be in the environment set up by our society to confine those convicted of criminal acts. Tomorrow I will preach about the birth of Christ. I will tell the story of his parents holiday travels, of his birth, and the visit from the shepherds. I will encourage all present to come and see the Christ, and from his manger to his cross to receive the grace of God.

Psalm 72 I read this in light of the tragedy in Newtown.
“Endow the king with your justice, O God, the royal son with your righteousness. He will judge your people in righteousness, your afflicted ones with justice.” (Verse 1)

The crime committed yesterday by a lone gunman taking innocent lives and then his own is so senseless. How can the afflicted ones be comforted with justice? The only possible relief, the only actual justice will be unseen, eternal. The souls of those children live on. The soul of the shooter lives on. It could be that the greatest agony for parents who lost children will be if they did not take the opportunity to lead those children into the arms of Jesus. I once looked into the eyes of a child who was dying of cancer. She knew the love of Jesus, and the possibility of eternity. I had the privilege of baptizing her. Her parents now have two additional children.

Verse 4 – “He will defend the afflicted among the people and save the children of the needy; he will crush the oppressor.” This verse refers to the injustice of oppression, by governments, systems, bullies, etc which leave people needy and afflicted. This does not address the question of random horrific mass murder. But it does lead to the question of why? How could God allow this if “He will defend the afflicted among the people”? I do not have an answer to the “why” question. I do think that it is related to God’s decision to give humans free will, and also to the real presence of evil on the earth.

“He will take pity on the weak and the needy and save the needy from death. He will rescue them from oppression and violence, for precious is their blood in his sight.” (Verses 13-14) Why did God not rescue these children at Sandy Hook Elementary, and save them from death? Why did God not save the child from cancer? I can live with the unanswered question of why. I have faith in the largeness of God, believing that He embraces my question of why, even though I likely will never know the answer. For all the parents and loved ones of children who die, the question of why is even so much stronger.
 
In the gospels Jesus says that not even a sparrow falls that God does not see. In this Psalm it is affirmed that the blood of those oppressed and victimized by violence is precious in His sight. O my Living Lord, guide me as I prepare tomorrow’s sermon about the birth of the Savior, and as I visit Licking prison today. May your presence sustain me as I walk hand in hand with You throughout this day.

December 14, 2012

This is my last morning in Kentucky. I will work on the January Cliffhanger series this morning, then head to the woods for lunch and dinner, cutting and loading firewood and oak timbers on the trailer. I will drive 3 ½ hours to Van Buren where I will spend the night at The Landing on the current river. Tomorrow I will work on Sunday’s sermon and visit Ron in Licking.

Romans 8 - I love Romans 8!

Verses 1-17 speak to me this morning around the topic of sanctifying grace. I wrote last night in the spring training 2013 material about sanctifying grace, and I will go back and add the gist of these verses. I continue to live in the freedom described herein, free from condemnation and with my mind set on the things of the Spirit, and not living according to the sinful nature. As Christ lives in me, my body is dead because of sin, yet my spirit is alive because of righteousness. And he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to my mortal body through His spirit, who lives in me! (Romans 8:5-11)

I also know that nothing can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus – neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present or the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation! In all these things I am a conqueror through Him who loves me. (Verse 37-38) This is reality! This chapter of Romans clearly states the sanctifying power of God active in the believer who trusts in Him. It has been and is my experience. I face the future with hope, even as my body ages, my skin wrinkles, my knees buckle, my teeth chip, and my vision weakens! God is on the throne, He makes all things new! I will serve Him until I take my last breath, and then I will be ushered into eternity and the joy of the Lord of heaven and earth, whose name I proclaim!

John Ed Mathison sent me his new book, When God Redefines the Possible with the inscription “Bruce, thanks for allowing God to use you to redefine the possible! John Ed. I will use its 52 sections for reading in my daily devotions beginning today. Lord, use these chapters to guide my mind and heart into more fully living and doing your will, even as you “redefine the possible” for Bruce Baxter. May this day be full of your Spirit guiding my thinking, planning, writing as this pastor plans for 2013 and beyond.

December 12, 2012

Again this morning Job and Shawchuck (A Guide to Prayer) have me reading the first chapter of Luke, the account of Gabriel appearing to Zacharias. It is good for me to remember this again, under the topic of nagging questions. I especially appreciated the devotional writing of Brennan Manning included for this week. He says “The Christmas contemplative knows that hope is a gift, an undeserved gift of peace, but that it is also a call to decision-the decision to trust…”

As I am alone in Kentucky during these four days I am a “Christmas contemplative.” I had really good prayer time as I drove east on Hwy 60 for 4 hours yesterday afternoon. I benefit from silence. Ron Watts and I shared a delicious meal at an Italian restaurant in downtown Cape Girardeau as we caught up on family and discussed ministry in our two contexts. He described the children’s ministry facility that La Croix built, themed as a rain forest, which has one floor for little ones birth through 4 years old, and one floor for kids Kindergarten through 4th grade. The 5th and 6th grades are in a middle school area. They have large gathering areas for K and 1, 2 and 3, and 4th grade is by itself. The areas have stage and lights, and after 30 minutes of music, drama, and teaching, they break into small groups for discussion, application and prayer. He said that they will host 500 kids during their three weekend worship experiences – Sat evening, plus 2 on Sunday. He emphasized security, and need of parents to have trust in the systems.

We also discussed the issues facing our jurisdiction with the fiasco of Bledsoe and the two conferences without a bishop. Does the Jurisdiction Episcopal committee have the authority to appoint Bledsoe to New Mexico and Northwest Texas? Will the Jurisdictional Conference need to be reconvened? Will they decide to shuffle all the bishops? Interesting questions.

I have these four days for this retreat/planning session. This morning I will work on Sunday’s sermon and email. This afternoon I will spend time in the woods with my rifle and chain saw. Tonight I will work on 2013 material, and again tomorrow morning. I will also develop my outline for the Christmas Eve message, and begin to plan the Cliff Hanger series for post Christmas. Thank you Lord for this time away. Guide me thinking, planning, discerning. Speak to me afresh as I seek your presence. Anoint this Christmas contemplative with your spirit, as you have annointed those who have sought you down through the ages. Bless the work of Wesley as the daily ministries unfold.

December 10, 2012

The theme chosen by Job and Shawchuck (A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God) for this week is “Nagging Questions.” In Luke 1:18-20 is found the question asked by Zacharias, a priest who was chosen by lot to enter the temple of the Lord and burn incense. While there, an angel of the Lord appeared to him, who told him that his petition had been heard, his wife Elizabeth would bear a son, and he would name him John. “Zacharias said to the angel, ‘how shall I know this for certain? For I am an old man, and my wife is advanced in years.’” (Verse 18)

What are the nagging questions of my life? I would like to think that there is no doubt in my heart about what God has said to me, through His word, through His Spirit, and through visions and promptings. I am not aware of any angelic appearances or messages. But I must search my heart and be honest in pondering if there are any nagging questions, and then deal with them. They probably center around what is next, in my leadership at Wesley, in the Annual Conference, in my ministry, and in what I might write. I hold these questions loosely, with faith and with hopeful anticipation. Zacharias’ famous doubt, and ensuing loss of voice until the baby was born instructs me not to question angels when they tell me what is about to happen.

I am heading into the woods of Kentucky to be by myself for several days. I feel close to God when I am there, and it has somewhat of a hermitage feel. I am looking forward to that time alone. Speak to me, most holy one, that I may know your will and live according to your plan. Guard me from doubt, insolence, selfishness, complacency. Use me up in giving myself away for the building of the kingdom.

In preparation for my days in Kentucky this week, I will work hard at church today. I have several meetings, and much preparation to do for this season and for the Spring Training material. I will hook up the trailer and bring it home this afternoon, to have the Explorer and trailer ready to go tomorrow morning. I have been gathering my gear, and will shop for food tonight. Given the frigid temperature and the forecast, I plan to spend Wednesday night in the woods, with the possibility of the lodge on Thursday and Friday. My other option is to spend Wed and Thur in the woods, leaving Friday, with the option of spending Friday night on the road so I can visit Ron Kessler in Licking on Saturday. I am looking forward to several days in the woods and with time to prepare for Christmas and beyond.

December 7, 2012

“To Thee, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in Thee I trust, do not let me be ashamed; do not let my enemies exult over me. Indeed, none of those who wait for Thee will be ashamed; those who deal treacherously without cause will be ashamed.

“Make me know Thy ways, O Lord; teach me Thy paths. Lead me in Thy truth and teach me, for Thou art the God of my salvation; for Thee I wait all the day.” (Psalm 25, Verses 1-5 NASB)

These verses speak the prayer of my heart as I lift up my soul to God this morning. I trust completely in Him. I desire to know His ways and to learn His paths. I am seeking His truth, waiting upon Him all the day, who is the God of my salvation. Next week I will spend a few days in retreat in Kentucky. I will roam the woods. I will read and study scripture, seeking God’s leading, His paths, His truth. I am looking forward to those days apart, to refresh, renew, refocus.

Today I will work on Sunday’s message on “Finding Real Peace.” The critical element is peace with God, and peace with one’s self. All other conflict is manageable and tolerable when one experiences the “peace I leave with you, not as the world gives…” that Jesus promised his disciples. To know who you are and whose you are prepares you for whatever happens.

Guide me today Lord as I seek your path and learn your truth. Guard me from being religious or callous, or selfish or anything else that limits your grace in my life.

December 4, 2012

Paul affirms that he is “not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, ‘but the righteous man shall live by faith.’” (Romans 1:16-17) In this epistle, Paul systematically develops the themes of faith, righteousness, and the good news of Jesus Christ.

Romans 1:18 -32 describe how God has been revealed to all humans through creation. He laments that humans have turned from worshiping God to worshiping the creation “For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator;” (Verse 25) Paul then gets more specific as he describes how God has given men and women over to degrading passions. He concludes in verse 32 “and although they know the ordinance of God, that those who practice such things are worthy of death, they not only do the same, but also give hearty approval to those who practice them.”

The book of Romans is a powerful teaching about God, developed logically and inspired by God’s Spirit through one of the great thinkers and witnesses to Jesus, the apostle Paul. Martin Luther studied this book and taught from it from 1510-1520 at Wittenburg. John Wesley was powerfully impacted by what Luther wrote in his introduction to the book of Romans when he heard a person reading from this introduction at a society (a small group meeting) on Aldersgate street, May 24, 1738.

As I prepare the content of the Life Group material for Spring Training, the Basics of Grace, I will draw from Luther’s intro to Romans, and his lifelong emphasis on salvation by grace through faith.

Guide me today Lord as I seek to grow in your righteousness, living by faith and not by sight. Use me as your shepherd of souls today, and every day on this journey toward eternity.

It rained overnight as a cold front is pushing down from the north. The rest of the day will be dry, and the temperature will rebound to 60, because this cold front is not artic but pacific. Yesterday I finished up with the outside lights, mowed the lawn for the last time, winterizing the mower, fired up the chain saw, cut some large walnut logs in half, and then sharpened the chain. Audrey and I started the day out to breakfast together, and then ran some errands. All in all, it was a good day off. Now I am ready for Tuesday, which is the first day of my work week. I will write the article for the pastor’s pen, prepare for worship planning, and after our meeting, I have the rest of the day to catch up on details, plan and prepare for the coming weeks and the new year.

December 2, 2012

Today is the first day of Advent, come Lord Jesus, come! A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God will be my devotional guide this morning, as I have been using it for the last few weeks, and today I have the privilege of turning to the very beginning and starting on page one. Thank you Lord for the beauty of this early morning. I am looking forward to this morning of worship, preaching and holy communion.

I Thessalonians 3 (especially verses 9-13)

Paul has sent Timothy to Thessalonica and has received a good report from him. He says that he prays night and day for the believers there, and he “pray(s) most earnestly that we may see you face to face and restore whatever is lacking in your faith.” This morning I will see the believers at Wesley face to face, and in my morning message restore whatever is lacking in their faith, especially as it concerns the second coming of Jesus to judge and rule the earth. It is an awesome responsibility to stand before a congregation and preach the word of God. Guide me today Lord as I speak your words to your people called Wesley.

Yesterday was a full day of celebrating. For me it began in the morning at the Men’s breakfast which included great fellowship around the tables as 24 men gathered for delicious breakfast, and then a brief business meeting, adopting by-laws suggested from Nashville. The UMW (women’s group) met at 10 for brunch, and I said hello around the edges and helped with some details before it got underway. Upward basketball was in full swing and I had several interactions, including a great conversation with the executive director of Victory Mission, Jim Harriger, whose grandchildren participate in Upward. Audrey and I ended the evening by attending the bi-district Clergy Christmas party at Hood UMC in Republic. It was nice, and accomplished the purposes of such a gathering. We sat with Jerry, Bev, Mi Hyeon and a couple whom I met for the first time, Clint and Kim. He pastors a church outside of Bolivar, and will be coming before the board for commissioning interviews in March.

Lord, I am preparing for your coming. Soon and very soon, we are going to see the King. Whether in the climax of this world’s events, or in the death of my earthly body, I am looking forward to seeing you and living in your presence in the new reality of heaven. Guide me in this present reality to recognize your presence, in the breaking of the bread, in the faces of your people at Wesley, in the hands outstretched for the elements. I am yours Lord, today and every day until the end of time, even unto eternity.

November 30, 2012

It is the last day of November, Audrey’s favorite month. How did it evaporate so fast? What will December hold? Are all the months passing more rapidly as I age? I will seek to invest this last day of November in the healthiest way possible. My schedule has had a steady dose of meetings this week, all of them good and fruitful sessions of planning, preparation and supervision. Today my schedule will allow me to write Sunday’s message, catch up on the work stacked up on my desk, and make a couple of hospital visits. I do so enjoy the work of being a pastor, and it is a heavy responsibility. Tomorrow the men have their December meeting and the women have their Christmas party, as the Upward basketball season kicks off its first games tonight and tomorrow. Tomorrow evening we will attend the clergy district Christmas party at the Republic UMC.

John 12

Jesus explains to his disciples that “unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone. But if it dies, it bears much fruit. He who loves his life loses it; and he who hates his life in this world shall keep it to life eternal.” (Verses 24-25) As the month of November comes to a close, and the holiday month of December dawns tomorrow, I am very aware that if I love with possessiveness this life, I will lose it, and if I give away my life in this world I will keep it to life eternal. This is a great mystery, and a profound truth.

November 28, 2012

Today we will host the funeral of Gene Myers who died last Tuesday morning. Gene was a faithful member of Wesley and president of the Friendship Sunday School class.

Romans 14: (especially 10-12)

The theme of this chapter revolves around not condemning others for doing what you deem to be not appropriate. As Paul writes this, he is referring to Christians who have decided not to eat meat, or not to drink wine, or not to celebrate certain holy days for spiritual reasons. He ends the chapter by saying “The faith which you have, have as your own conviction before God. Happy is he who does not condemn himself in what he approves. But he who doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and whatever is not from faith is sin.” (Verses 22-23) In the margin of my Bible I noted “at age 50 I committed to no beverage alcohol for this reason.”

To summarize the teaching of this chapter I would conclude that Paul is encouraging believers to develop strong convictions about how they practice the faith, and at the same time to be careful not to judge the carefully discerned practices of others who are seeking to faithfully live out their lives before God. The Amish decided not to use automobiles or electricity. In verse 14 Paul says “I know and am convinced in the Lord Jesus that nothing is unclean in itself; but to him who thinks anything to be unclean, to him it is unclean.” So, whatever a person has given up or taken on in devotion to Jesus Christ, that person should be fully convinced of the practice, and not judge those who have through faith adopted a different practice. In his essay on The Character of a Methodist, John Wesley concludes by writing “Is thy heart right, as my heart is with thine? I ask no farther question. If it be, give me thy hand. For opinions, or terms, let us not destroy the work of God.”

It is important for every believer to be careful in daily living and in spiritual disciplines. As the pastoral leader of a large faith community I am careful to attend to the personal spiritual practices which I have discerned, and I am very conscious of the different ways believers practice faithful living. Guide me today most Holy Lord as I live unto you, for whether I live or die I am yours. May my life shine as a beacon in a dark world.

Near Republic there is a house on fire in which a family of 6 escaped around 3 am this morning. The same family had a fire in the same house 5 years ago. The local news affiliate had graphic film of the house ablaze with firefighters from surrounding departments fighting it. I imagine what it is like for those men and women on this very cold morning to get the alarm at 3 am and arrive on the scene. There is also a fire in north Springfield this morning. I am praying for all who involved in these emergencies.

November 24, 2012

Tomorrow I begin a new series entitled “Unwrapping Christmas”. It begins with the scripture from Revelation 1:4-8 and the question “Who is really the king?” I look forward to developing this series and the regular weekly teaching about the real meaning of Christmas – the celebration of the birth of a king.

“Behold days are coming declares the Lord when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel…. I will put My law within them, and on their heart I will write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people.” (Jer 31:31-34) Yes Lord, those days are here, beginning with the birth of Christ and continuing through this present day, your law is written on the hearts of those who follow Christ, who are born again not according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. We live under this new covenant and enjoy its benefits.

The theme developed by Job and Shawchuck for this week in their devotional A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God is “A New Beginning”. The scriptures are from the common lectionary for this week leading up to “Christ the King” Sunday, and their devotional writings are arranged around this theme.

A real cold front came through yesterday afternoon, dropping temperatures to the low twenties last night. I welcome the purging that comes with a solid freeze, the killing of weeds and insects. They will both emerge in the spring, but until then the frost has taken them. I like the crispness of a clear cold morning like today. It feels fresh and energizing. I have the privilege of officiating at a wedding this afternoon at the Elphindale chapel. Rochelle will be the musician.

My God and my King, I serve today at your command. Guide my steps, direct my thoughts, inspire my words, lead my heart ever closer to yours.

November 14, 2012

Last night Audrey and I hosted our 6th and final life group in the fall series. We have had a great group of 13 people who have met here at our house and at the home of the Bigelows. It is a combination of new members of Wesley, long-term members and persons considering joining Wesley. Last night I introduced Bishop Schnase’s work on the 5 Practices and related this to the 5 commitments of church membership – prayers, presence, gifts, service and witness. At Wesley we pursue developing more fruitful disciples who worship, care and serve. I regularly need to keep this mission before all of us.

Acts 20: especially verses 31-38 on the theme of “claiming our inheritance.”

This chapter is a travel memoir, as Paul raps up his third missionary journey. Rather than stop in Ephesus, he summons the elders to Miletus where he addresses them with encouragement and exhortation. Acts 20:17-38 contains his words to them, which are golden to all pastors and church leaders. In verse 32 he says “And now I commend you to God and to the word of His grace, which is able to build you up and to give you the inheritance among all those who are sanctified.” I receive this commendation, and this morning I am built up and reminded of the inheritance to which I am heir along with all those who are sanctified.

My work today is among leaders. I will drive to Columbia to host a two-hour training session for superintendents and leaders of district committees on ordained ministry. Along with three others from the annual conference board of ordained ministry we will review the processes and procedures that the district committees undertake to shepherd those who are experiencing a call to pastoral leadership in the church. I relish this opportunity, and I recognize the weight of this responsibility. Now that I have been serving as a pastor for 30 years, with a healthy balance of involvement in academia, evangelism, church planting, missions and now the board of ordained ministry I have a confidence that God has been preparing me for this role, and I will live into it with faith and diligence.

I need to be writing. I am being pressed most appropriately with deadlines for our Spring 2013 material. I commend our pastoral staff for doing so, and I need to carve out time and prioritize this work, which I long to do, and which I am called to do.

I just wrote three paragraphs for the introduction. I am on my way in this resource. I will write early in the morning, and late into the night. Thank you Lord for this motivation and the gentle pressure of deadlines. Guide my work today as I lead in improving the process of the culture of call within our United Methodist connection.

November 13, 2012

I have a great day ahead, of pastoral work with leadership development and the hosting of our life group tonight. I look forward to getting to my office, organizing my desk and diving in to preparation, plans, praying, and pastoring. Yesterday Audrey and I went out for an early breakfast, worked around the house, then caught a late afternoon movie. We split a salad from Panera and invested the rest of the evening in study and correspondence.

Luke 12:32-34

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.” This is great news of monumental proportions! God who has created everything, who owns everything, has chosen gladly, not begrudgingly to give us the kingdom. The devotional theme this week is “Claim Your Inheritance.” This verse reminds me of the spiritual inheritance that God has prepared for those who become a part of his flock. Even as I prepare to part with the LHS, which I inherited from my parents, along with their house and their estate, I am mindful of the inheritance my heavenly Father is providing. I must always remember that I am an heir of The King.

“Sell your possessions and give to charity; make yourselves purses which do not wear out, an unfailing treasure in heaven, where no thief comes near, nor moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” (Verses 33-34)

The book of Proverbs, written originally for the sons of the nobles of Israel mentions inheritance several times, including the observation that an inheritance quickly gained is quickly spent. There are prudent ways to handle any earthly inheritance one receives, and these verses remind me that the healthiest focus of my daily life is to please God, and to store up treasure in heaven. I do this by giving my life and resources away. Living with wisdom, cultivating a generous spirit, observant of opportunities to invest time and resources in others is my goal. I have coined the concept of “cumulative living” which is a principle I have lived by, and will write about. It is living that adds up in a world that does not.

Guide me today, most precious, holy Lord as I “make for myself a purse which does not wear out, an unfailing treasure in heaven.” May this day reveal Your glory.

November 11, 2012

Today is Veterans Day, and I have asked the Rev. Jim Massey to preach. We will have lunch in room 32 and then church conference in the gym with the Rev. Dr. Bart Hildreth, our district superintendent leading. Yesterday our youth spent the day near Branson on an Alpha retreat, focusing on the Holy Spirit. We also had a “mini mission blitz” yesterday, with 120+ Wesley folks participating in a huge effort to pack food for the needy in a community-wide effort downtown.

Psalm 127 (theme for this week in Job-Shawchuck “Claim Your Inheritance”)

“Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it. Unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman keeps awake in vain.” (Verse 1) This brief Psalm reminds me that the work we are about is God’s work and will be to the end of time. As a pastor I must never slip into thinking that shepherding a flock and extending the kingdom of God is anything but a partnership with our creator in His work and purpose in the world.

The Foundry, a new United Methodist Church will have its first regular Sunday Morning worship service today. Richard Fine is the pastor and they have rented an elementary school in the area. They are hoping to reach the Battlefield-Republic area of southwest metropolitan Springfield. Today is the anniversary of John Wesley preaching his first sermon in front of the foundry, a building he eventually purchased and used as a center for the Methodist movement in England in the 1700s.

David Petraeus resigned on Friday as the director of the CIA. It came to light on Wednesday that he had been having an affair with his biographer. What a huge loss. He seemed to be the right man for the job, with his great record commanding the military effort in Iraq and Afghanistan. I can only imagine how this moral failure is impacting him and his family today.

Guide me today, most Holy Lord as I labor in building your kingdom through the work of pastoring Wesley UMC here in Springfield. May the work be guided by your spirit, empowered by your love, and established according to your will. I am your servant, use me today.

November 9, 2012

Today is a beautiful day and a gift. I am aware of much pain and suffering in the world, and the possibility of healing and wholeness. Audrey and I are in the family room with the gas fire burning as we read and study scripture.

Matthew 14:22-33

Jesus sends the disciples across the lake in a boat while he dismisses the crowds, then gets alone to pray. During the fourth watch of the night, he comes to them walking on the water. Peter steps out of the boat and walks on the water until he sees the wind and becomes afraid, calling out to Jesus “Lord save me!” Jesus stretched out his hand and said “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”

This famous incident in scripture gives me much upon which to chew. I can picture the scene, and feel what the disciples felt. It is hard for me to imagine the how of Jesus and Peter walking on the water. I believe it happened, and was a miracle without explanation. I believe that miracles still happen. It is so important for me to listen for Jesus’ beckoning voice, and in obeying it to focus upon him and have no fear of the elements. This could be applied to pastoring, to marriage, to missions, to discipleship, and to every experience in life.

Being with Jesus, doing what he says, exercising faith and overcoming the doubts that naturally arise – this is the life that pleases God, which is my goal. Today, most holy Lord, may my life be lived in your presence, fully obedient and attentive to your word and will. Here in Springfield on a Friday in November, may faith bear fruit in my life and service to your kingdom.

I had a phone message yesterday from a family in another part of the state. I performed the wedding of husband and wife, and now with four children they are experiencing issues. My heart hurts for them and I desire to bring a word of hope and healing when we are able to talk today.

November 8, 2012

Mark 11:20-25

Peter points out the fig tree that previously Jesus had found with only leaves, and had spoken to the tree: “May no one ever eat fruit from you again.” (Verse 14) It is withered from the roots up, and Jesus says “Have faith in God. Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says is going to happen, it shall be granted him. Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they shall be granted you.” (Verses 22-24)

The theme in the devotional guide by Job and Shawchuck for this week is “From doubt to belief.” This passage is a clear teaching of Jesus about the power of faith. In the last few decades there have been many pastors and teachers who have emphasized faith – from healing to prosperity, often this faith has had a self-centered aspect. I believe in the power of God and desire to walk by faith, and not by sight. This minor incident in the life of Jesus takes on major importance as an example of faith in God spoken directly to a created object.

Today I will be more conscious of the power of faith and the opportunities I have to speak against doubt, fear, brokenness, unfruitfulness, and sin. From a fig tree to a mountain, God acts on behalf of his people who pray. Guide me now most Holy Lord as I pray.

Yesterday I began a more serious search for my next car, as I visited a church member at the Honda dealer, then looked at their new and used Civics and Accords. I am pretty dispassionate about this search, simply recognizing the need for a more dependable car. There is what seems a great value in leasing a 2012 Civic. I like the looks of the Ford Fusion, and need to check it out. The Civic gets 39 mpgs on the highway. I must guard against being infatuated with a new car, and continue to search the used car market.

November 6, 2012

Election day! Every 4 years we cast our votes for the president of the United States. I will vote as early as I can this morning. We have staff prayers at 9:15, worship planning at 10:15, and a field trip for the facility study team this afternoon, visiting 2nd Baptist and the Wilson Creek campus of James River Assembly. Audrey made it home safely last night, enduring a 2 hour delay in Los Angeles. It was so good to see her.

John 10:22-30

“From doubt to belief” is the theme for this week of devotional readings in Job and Shawchuck’s A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God.” This passage is set at the temple where the Jews are asking Jesus to tell them plainly whether or not he is the Christ. He responds that he has told them, but they do not believe, because they are not of his sheep. “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them and they follow me.” (Verse 27) Yes Lord! I hear Your voice and follow You. You have appointed me to lead a portion of your flock, and I do so with faith and obedience.

Yesterday I experienced a sabbatical day of rest. It began with a motorcycle ride to Lake Tannycomo and a visit to the state trout hatchery. I hiked a trail and explored along the lake (the damned up White River). As it began to rain, I donned my rain suit and headed home, riding through moderate rain from low clouds. I rested in the afternoon, then in the evening went to the grocery store and seminary library on my way to pick Audrey up from the airport. At the seminary I read an interesting article in the current edition of the Methodist Historical Journal about the dispute after John Wesley’s death of who had the rights to publish his biography and access to his papers.

Guide me today, most Holy Lord as I serve you with joy. May my words, my thoughts, my actions honor your name and bring increase to your flock. Bless our country as we exercise the privilege of voting in the democratic process of electing our leaders.

November 4, 2012

We gained an hour last night, as the time changed from Central Daylight Savings Time to Central Standard Time. In 17 weeks we will “spring forward” and return to daylight savings time. During these 17 weeks darkness will fall around 5 pm, and the sun will rise around 7 am. I always love this particular morning, because of the extra hour added. This morning the Bass Pro Marathon will take place in Springfield, even as the New York Marathon has been cancelled today due to the storm Sandy which has decimated the east coast.

I feel especially good about this morning of worship. I am looking forward to delivering the message which includes a testimony from the Smiths, a family that adopted an infant daughter. We will celebrate the names of members who have died in the past 12 months, and we will share in communion.

Psalm 146 (from lectionary in A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God)

“I will praise the Lord as long as I live; I will sing praises to my God all my life long.” (Verse 2)
I meditate upon this verse and picture the rest of my life, whether I live to be 70, 80, 90, or if this is my last year. It is healthy to realize that I will not always be a steward of this earthly body entrusted with daily opportunities. I affirm the statement of the Psalmist, that I, Bruce Baxter will praise the Lord as long as I live!

“The Lord loves the righteous.” (Verse 8) This affirmation blessed me this morning, as I daily seek to live in God’s imputed and imparted righteousness. I have for 34 years, and will until the end of my days. I received a warmth and an encouragement to remember that the Lord sees and knows my life and my heart.

Guide me today Lord as I serve as a pastoral guide to others. Help me to bless many, and to appropriately celebrate the lives of those who are departed, and to teach all of us how to witness to others about Your blessed presence in our lives.

November 3, 2012

The presidential election occurs in 3 days, and the polls indicate that it will be very close. The future health of the United States is precarious. My trust is in God, and in Him the future is secure. Some trust in chariots, and some in horses, but we will remember the name of the Lord our God! (Psalm 20:6-7)

Psalm 20

John 6:35-40
“Jesus said to them ‘I am the bread of life, he who comes to me shall not hunger, and he who believes in me shall never thirst.’” I have experienced the sustenance of the Lord. I believe and trust in Him. My needs are met.

Thank you most Holy Lord for the living Word. The scriptures this morning remind me that you are my source of strength and the foundation of my hope. I do not trust in government, politics, money or military might. I do not trust in my own strength or abilities. I trust in you, and your strong arm to protect and guide. Reveal yourself today as I listen and learn with a small team from Wesley. Bless Audrey and Bethany as they spend the next two days together in southern California.

Audrey arrived safely last night in Los Angeles for a three-day visit with Bethany, and I have gotten up before 5 am to lean into this Saturday. I will read scriptures, pray, get ready and then hit the gym and church on my way to the seminar with Jim Griffith on how to reach new people, hosted by Kingsway.

October 28, 2012

This morning’s News Leader has a great story about Wesley members painting yesterday at Rare Breed during the Springfield area “Make a Difference Day.” As we are emphasizing serving today in worship, this is great timing, and a good example of how our members regularly serve throughout the year in various ministries.

I am waking up refreshed and ready for the day. Yesterday I started at the Men’s breakfast, and then took two of our members flying over Springfield. In the afternoon I worked around the house, exercised at the gym, and then worked in my study a little before retiring early for bed.

Today Dwight Chapman will bring the morning message about serving, the national director from Rainbow network in Nicaragua will bring greetings, and all our ministries are emphasized with displays throughout the lobby. It is an exciting day. This afternoon our children’s ministries host a friendly Halloween party in the gym, after which I head to Columbia for the BOM meeting on Monday and Tuesday.

I Corinthians 13 (from today’s Upper Room)

Love is the greatest gift, attribute, characteristic of the Christian life. This chapter falls immediately between Paul’s discussion of spiritual gifts in chapter 12, and his clarification on prophecy and tongues in chapter 14. It is refreshing and instructive for me to read chapter 13 this morning. I usually read it in the context of a wedding, and speak about it.

Guide me today, most holy Lord as I seek to embody a life of love and good work. May kindness and care be the nature of my life and ministry. Guard me from anything that would reduce love expressed through my earthly journey.

October 24, 2012

"There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men." (I Corinthians 12:4-6)

Today at this training for the Board of Ordained Ministry, we will be considering an assessment tool that will help us in the work of assessing gifts, service and working of potential pastors. I look forward to becoming familiar with it.

Yesterday I ran three miles before dinner, and tangled with a minivan whose driver did not see me when she pulled out as I crossed in front of her. I slammed my hands on her hood and prepared to vault across, and she responded quickly to brake. The end was benign, but caused me to think again how careful pedestrians need to be, assuming that drivers will not see them.

I am affirmed as a pastor and as a servant leader in the annual conference through attending this training event and networking with others. These are big responsibilities, and God has gifted and equipped me to undertake them with authenticity and aptitude, calling and giftedness. Guide me today most Holy Lord as I learn and am equipped to serve.

October 20, 2012

It is a beautiful clear, cool fall morning. My schedule is flexible today, with writing and preparation on tap. My favorite Greenway was reopened yesterday, having been closed 3 years for the construction of the hwy 60-hwy 65 interchange, and I will get on it this morning for perhaps a 10 mile trek. Last night I went for a walk around 8:00 and the night was still, with the stars sparkling and the quarter moon low in the west. Monday I head out early for Dallas, a long-anticipated trip for training of BOM chairs, registrars and staff from all states.

II Cor 5 (from today’s Upper Room) What a rich chapter! The first 10 verses address the concepts related to “the earthly tent which is our house” and the preference to “be absent from the body and to be at home with the Lord.” (Verse 8) With Paul, it is my ambition to be pleasing to the Lord, whether here in this earthly tent or in His presence in glory. I am reminded that “each one [will] be recompensed for his deeds in the body, according to what he has done, whether good or bad.” (Verse 10) Verses 11-19 describe life when “the love of Christ controls us” (verse14) when the old things are passed away, all things have become new and the one who is in Christ is a new creation (verse 17). Thus, being reconciled to God through Christ, “he has committed to us the word of reconciliation” (19) and we become his ambassadors of reconciliation.

The last verse leaves much to meditate upon: “He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” Today Bruce Baxter is becoming the righteousness of God in Christ, living in Springfield Missouri, married to Audrey Holmgren, father of David and Bethany, pastoring Wesley United Methodist Church and chairing the Missouri Conference Board of Ordained Ministry. This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!

October 19, 2012

The high today is predicted to go only to 56 degrees. It will be windy, but not as strong as yesterday. My meetings went well yesterday and I was able to complete many items on my to-do list. I have today and tomorrow to make progress on writing and other preparations. Last night I wrote Riad a Facebook message, and also commented on a photo on Jed Smock’s page. He wrote me back that it was indeed taken in Wilmore, where he spoke at Asbury University. His report will be posted today.

This morning I will read scripture and also a sermon by John Wesley, #116 about why Christianity has been ineffective. I discovered this sermon in a document recommended by the Commission on Higher Education.

Isaiah 26 Verse 3 – I have memorized this in the King James Version: “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.” I have experienced this to be true – I have lived in this peace which results from a mind fixed on God, a heart that trusts in God alone for salvation. This chapter from Isaiah is rich with imagery and promises. Reading it this morning I feel renewed and recharged as a member of your people, those who seek your face and obey your word, investing our lives in your kingdom’s advance on earth.

Wesley “Causes of the Inefficacy of Christianity” sermon 116

Is there no balm in Gilead; is there no physician there? Why then is not the health of the daughter of my people recovered.” Jer 8:22 Wesley relates this question to his generation and asks “Why has Christianity done so little good in the world?” This is a great sermon, and I will continue to benefit from reading it this morning.

October 18, 2012

Tuesday night Audrey and I hosted our life group which is made up of several of the new members who will be joining Wesley on Sunday. I drove late into the night on Tuesday to Excelsior Springs where I co-led a Wednesday morning session at the RIM retreat (Residents in Ministry) for the board of ordained ministry with Mark Dumas. Last night our facilities study committee met and had a good session in which I made a presentation about Granger UMC in Indiana, highlighting their children’s space. Today I will write, prepare, plan and meet. I have four appointments with leaders, and no evening commitments. I hope to get a flu shot on my way to work out later in the afternoon. Mark 12 (Upper Room) This chapter contains parables and teachings of Jesus. The final 4 verses (41-44) contain the account of Jesus taking a seat (in the temple) opposite the treasury, and watching people as they put their money into the treasury. He commented on the widow who put in two small copper coins: “Truly I say to you, this poor widow put in more than all the contributors to the treasury; for they all put in out of their surplus, but she, out of her poverty, put in all she owned, all she had to live on.” There is a clear stewardship message here, and as I preach on giving on Sunday, I will consider the meaning of this passage. Pastor ministry is complicated. As I read this chapter of scripture, various images flash in my mind of people and situations that are currently involved in the church, and in my imagination I can picture similar situations in faith communities down through history, including in Jesus’ day. Today my role seems like two small copper coins, and I know that what I have to offer, dedicated to God’s glory, will be received by Him and multiplied, just like the small boy’s lunch of 2 fish and 5 loaves, and the five small stones of David. Thank you Lord for the promises of scripture and your Spirit speaking to my spirit this morning. Guide my steps as I serve You with all that I am today. Use my obedience to your glory.

October 13, 2012

We are having a garage sale this morning. It starts at 7 am, and I need to put out a couple of signs, move the cars and motorcycle to the road, and help Audrey and Tammy move the items from the garage onto the driveway, making room to walk. We will see how it all pans out. James 1 (suggested by today’s Upper Room devotional) “This is pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father, to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world.” (Verse 27) I have always appreciated the practical wisdom and direct instructions provided by James in this epistle. After he introduces himself in verse 1, he says “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.” He lived and wrote during fierce persecution of the young church. I live in America during relative prosperity as the mainline church is shrinking on every side. It is way too easy to be a follower of Christ. I desire to live closer to the edge, trusting God for miracles and daily direction. “And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (Verse4) Yes Lord! I desire to be perfect and complete, and am willing to undergo whatever it takes. I will live today as your servant, seeking to do and live your will. In every interaction, every thought, every action, I will honor You.

October 12, 2012

John 14 was my devotional text, suggested by today’s Upper Room. It is the beginning of the second half of the gospel of John. Chapters 1-13 could be labeled “The eternal word incarnated coming to bring God into man.” Chapters 14-21 could be labeled “Jesus crucified and Christ resurrected…” (I find the outline prepared by Witness Lee as published in the Recovery Version to be quite helpful!) John 14 is very familiar to me, as I read it often in the context of leading a funeral. It is good for me to read it devotionally, and to listen for God’s word to Bruce Baxter. This morning I received comfort from the promises the Jesus goes to prepare a place for me. I also noted His boldness in stating that the Father was in Him, and He in the Father. He stated that we who follow after Him will do even greater works than He did. I paused at this sentence and considered the greater works I might be doing, and realized that I can certainly grow in this area. As I was waiting for this laptop to fire up, I picked up Charles Jefferson’s The Minister as Shepherd and continued where I had left off, reading about the shepherd as physician. I think the Holy Spirit is leading me to pay more attention to this aspect of ministry. Yesterday afternoon I called and spoke with Norm and Ruth D., who live in the Wright City area. I was waiting on a watch battery, and we had a great 15 minute conversation. I have been intending to call them for over a year. Norm is 84 and they have been married 61 years. It was great to hear their voices and to reconnect, albeit ever so briefly. Norm made the motion at the 1976 Charge Conference of Green Trails United Methodist church to approve me as a candidate for ordained ministry. Guide me today, most Holy Lord as I follow in your footsteps, with an openness to doing even greater things than you did during your earthly sojourn. May my life be fruitful today.

October 11, 2012

I will pray with another pastor later this morning at 7:30, partnering to live prayer filled lives as husbands, fathers, shepherds, and evangelists. The weather turns cloudy with patches of fog and rain today. I have a delightful lunch appointment and the rest of the day unscheduled, which will allow for writing, planning, and pastoral phone calls. I love being a pastor, and at times it is overwhelming. I completely trust in God’s grace and mercy, which supports me and equips me to pastor this large flock called Wesley UMC. Luke 14 (from today’s Upper Room) I come to God’s Word this morning with an expectancy, an openness, and a readiness to hear what the Holy Spirit will say to me. Jesus was invited to the house of one of the leaders of the Pharisees on the Sabbath to eat bread. In this context he taught eternal truths. First, it is okay to heal on the Sabbath, or to rescue your son from a well. Second, he taught that when you are invited to a banquet, it is better to take the lowest seat, and then be invited to a better seat by the host, than to take the best seat, and then have the host remove you because he has someone else designated to sit in that seat. “For everyone who exalts himself shall be humbled, and he who humbles himself shall be exalted.” (Verse 11) Third, when you invite guests to a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled the lame and the blind, instead of your friends, family or rich neighbors. He states that you will be blessed and “repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.” (Verse 14) Fourth, through a parable he taught that many people make excuses for not showing up (being present) when invited to a big dinner. The master desires his house filled, so commands his servant to compel the poor, crippled, blind and lame to come to his banquet, noting that none of those invited shall taste of the dinner. Sunday I am preaching about the importance of being present, of showing up. I was imagining this parable yesterday afternoon, with plans to look it up today. Here it is in my devotional reading! Fifth, while going along the way Jesus taught about the cost of discipleship, comparing it to building a tower or preparing to go to war. He concludes: “So therefore, no one of you can be My disciple who does not give up all his own possessions.” Today I will work on writing the Spring 2013 material, which will include Bonhoeffer’s work The Cost of Discipleship. I thank you for your Word to me today. Lord, it is so timely, so relevant, and speaks so clearly to my heart, my head, and my soul. Use me as your servant today, obedient to all your teachings, filled with grace and wisdom as your servant leader. Guard me from anything that would distract me from following you and being fruitful. Next, I will read on prayer from John Ed Mathison's Treasures of the Transformed Life. Audrey and I are reading daily selections on the same day, as John Ed suggested when he was with us last month.

October 9, 2012

I do not understand frost and dew. My car is dripping wet with dew, but on TV the weather reports the dew point at 37, with the temperature at 42. I expect there is some logical connection. As I stepped outside to get the paper, I heard footsteps in the dark, and then a runner yelled out “Good morning Pastor Bruce” I yelled back (softly) “keep it up” as I wondered who that might be. Our garage is set up for the sale this Saturday, which makes it crowded and barely enough room for the motorcycle, which I will be riding to work today. There is much work to be done today, and I am looking forward to it. My pastor’s pen will introduce our new Executive Director of Operations. Worship planning will take some preparation for me to lay out the coming weeks. Tonight I co-host a life group with Bigelows, and tomorrow I have meetings with the Executive Staff and Executive Leadership team. The work of the Board of Ordained Ministry has some details which need attending, and I am continuing to develop the Life Group material for the spring of 2013. Psalm 34 “I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.” (1) This Psalm repeatedly blesses me in its expression and admonitions. “I sought the Lord and He answered me.” (4) For 38 years I have been seeking the Lord, and He has answered me in beautiful ways. “O taste and see that the Lord is good;” (8) Yes! “They who seek the Lord shall not be in want of any good thing.” I have never been lacking any good thing. My instructions for the day – verses13-14: “Keep your tongue from evil, and your lips from speaking deceit. Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.” My reminder for the day – verses 15 and 22: “The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry.” “The Lord redeems the soul of His servants; and none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned.” Thank you Lord for Psalm 34. It blesses me this morning, reminding me of your love and beauty, instructing me and promising me your presence and your provision. This Tuesday is dawning as a pretty regular day, it is the day which you have made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. Guide my every hour, every conversation, every ounce of preparation and follow-up.

October 8, 2012

I am up and at ‘um before 5 am. I am watching the Farm Report which precedes the morning news. I will cover the mums to save them from the frost for the next few weeks. The news says we are at 33 degrees here in Springfield. These hardy flowers tried to bloom in the Spring, and we cut off the buds so they would bloom in the Fall, which they have in glorious fashion. This unusually early cold snap will break today, with the high near 60, and warm for the next several days. There is frost on my car’s windshield, but not yet on the grass around the flowers. Perhaps the warmth of the ground is involved. I do not really understand frost! What shall I do with today? It is my day off, with no church related work scheduled. I will call a church member about her father’s death yesterday in his church in Illinois, and I will send out a group email to my life group with details about tomorrow’s first meeting. I worked yesterday afternoon making phone calls and invitations. Audrey and I will do some work around the house and yard to get ready for our weekend company, Rick and Ardell Oliver. We will also continue to prepare for our garage sale, postponed from last Saturday to next Saturday. I have been thinking a lot about Malcolm and Olwen, I will give them a call this morning. I plan to go on an 8 mile run, as part of my preparation for the Turkey Trot, 6 weeks away. It is a good incentive to increase my training intensity. Last year, 2011 I finished in 26:50 (8:40 per mile), almost 2 minutes better than my 28:47 in 2010. I placed 1110th overall, 34th out of 181 men my age (55-59). (excerpted from my 2011 journal). Perhaps a good goal this year would be to split the difference, say aim for a 27:50. If I do longer conditioning, and some speed work, running 5-6 days a week for the next 6 weeks, this might be possible. Since the marathon in February, I have had no incentive to train. I have been doing maintenance workouts, with a few timed miles. I would say that I have a decent conditioning base to work from. The thought of spending more than an hour on my day off running has not appealed to me, but today it does. I will hit the road at 6:30, with my reflective vest. Colossians 3 This is a great chapter! It has nuggets from beginning to end. “If then you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” (verses 1-3) As I begin this day, I am seeking the things above. I am setting my mind on the things above, because I have died and my life is hidden with Christ in God. In the ordinary course of a day, week, month or year, life is pretty ordinary for me. It is so helpful to have this admonition to redirect my thoughts and orientation toward eternity, and the reality today of heaven, God’s kingdom, and spiritual things. Last night Audrey and I watched the movie Valkyrie, starring Tom Cruise as Claus Schenk von Stauffenberg. The plot is based on the true story of the plot to assasinate Hitler in 1944 and take over Germany from the Nazis. Bonhoeffer was remotely involved in this effort. I have been reliving the plot overnight, thinking about the sacrifice that von Stauffenberg made to initiate the plot, which failed and resulted in his and hundreds of others being executed, some by torturous means. The peace and calm of the society I live within is such a contrast to the violence, danger and sacrifice of the era of WWII. Colossians 3 reminds me to daily “set my affections on things above, not on things of the earth” (KJV). The war of good and evil continues, and God has given me a role in this struggle. Verse 16 – “Let the word of Christ richly dwell within you, with all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with thankfulness in your hearts to God.” Yes, I will cultivate the word of Christ living within me. I will teach and admonish. And whatever I do in word or deed, I will do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father. (Verse 17) Mine is the privilege to live this day with an eternal focus, a heavenly mindset, indwelt with the word of Christ. Guide me today, most Holy Lord as I live for you, obey your word, and do everything in your name.

October 7, 2012

Prayer is like a pilot light – it is hidden, constant and fires up the heater! Here in Springfield we have just had our first frost of the season. This morning I am beginning a series entitled “Thirsting for More” with today’s topic being prayer. I will examine the teaching of Jesus from the Sermon on the Mount, and suggest a very practical way to remember some categories. I am thirsting for more of God, today and every day. I want to know Him better, to serve Him more fully, and to be increasingly fruitful. Gordon MacDonald has written a great article reflecting upon the serenity prayer, used with powerful results in the Alcoholics Anonymous circles. It is attributed to Reinhold Niebuhr, but some think it originated before him. This is the prayer: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” MacDonald says the first part is surrender, the second is courage, and the third is wisdom. I have never found this brief prayer of much help. I have read it, and understood its value, but I don’t know that I have ever prayed it. I respect Gordon MacDonald, so I might try praying this brief prayer. Matthew 6 “Be especially careful when you are trying to be good so that you don’t make a performance out of it. It might be good theater, but the God who made you won’t be applauding. When you do something for someone else, don’t call attention to yourself.” (Verses 1-2, The Message) This whole chapter is practical advice on living the God-pleasing life. Jesus observes that it is always a temptation to live the “people-pleasing” life instead. In the Jewish world into which he was born, the three most important ways to please God were giving alms, praying, and fasting. For each one he cautions the believer to not make a show of it. As I post this blog I am wondering if I am making too public my thoughts and actions. Hmmm. I will ponder this. My goal has been to be transparent, and to give a window into my daily activities and my thoughts. I see how this could easily convert to pleasing people and making a show out of what I do. I have enjoyed reading the spiritual journals of pastors and leaders, so I have for a couple of years been posting most of the content of my journal. Lord, my desire is to please you. You have appointed me to serve among people as a pastor, and I am thankful for this vocation. Guard me from taking my eyes off of You, empower me to be the most fruitful pastor I can be in this brief life, praying in secret, serving with obedience.

October 6, 2012

We have postponed the Garage Sale until next Saturday. I feel I like have the gift of a morning, that I was planning to spend helping in the garage sale. Last night the St. Louis Cardinals beat the Atlanta Braves in a one-game Wildcard playoff game, 6-3, helped by a Infield Fly rule called by the outfield umpire in which the St. Louis shortstop failed to catch the pop fly, and the Atlanta manager played the rest of the game under protest. Last night Audrey and I watched the 2011 movie Jane Eyre, and images from that movie flashed through my mind during the night. This morning the paper reports that the woman’s body found floating in Truman Lake was that of the 15 year-old girl from Willard, Khighla Parks, described as a run away. There is a similarity between the movie and this real life tragedy. Pondering this news my mind wonders to the question of how could someone have saved this girl? What type of relational outreach could have helped her through the difficult mid-teen years? What kind of abuse and neglect did she suffer at home? I have been reading Wikipedia about Lord Bryon, as I was reading about Jane Eyre and its author Charlotte Bronte. She and her siblings developed “Byronic” heroes for fun, and when she wrote Jane Eyre under the pen name Currer Bell she subtitled it “An Autobiography.” “The Byronic hero presents an idealized, but flawed character whose attributes include: great talent; great passion; a distaste for society and social institutions; a lack of respect for rank and privilege (although possessing both); being thwarted in love by social constraint or death; rebellion; exile; an unsavory secret past; arrogance; overconfidence or lack of foresight; and, ultimately, a self-destructive manner.” (From Wikipedia) Lord Byron wrote Don Juan and based largely upon his own experiences. So, now it is 7:15, we have not been inundated with disappointed garage sale shoppers, and I feel that the morning has really now begun well. I will turn to scripture and prayer. I will read the first day of Treasures of the Transformed Heart devotionally. Proverbs 6 (because today is the 6th) This Proverb continues the advice to the young men of Solomon’s court. Such practical wisdom - don’t be liable for other people’s debts, and be diligent in your work, like the ant, not sleeping all the time like a sluggard who will become impoverished. Verses 16- 19 list 7 things that the Lord hates – these should be noted well – a proud look, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, a false witness, and the one who sows discord among brethren. Verses 20-23 emphasize keeping the commandments, binding them upon one’s heart. Verses 24-35 basically say – do not be like Lord Bryon! These verses warn of the dangers of adultery, of the destruction that comes to a man who is sexually involved with a woman who is not his wife. Every man should regularly read these verses. Guide me today, most holy Lord as I live to serve you in all that I say and do. Guard me from anything that would distract me from your will and purposes. May your Word and you commandments be always in my mind, on my lips, guarding my heart. Use me to lift others and to encourage all who need it. This is the day which you have made; I will rejoice and be glad in it.

October 1, 2012

This morning I will meet several pastors across Missouri for a motorcycle ride. Travelling up Hwy 44 I will meet a pastor in Waynesville, then we will meet other pastors at 94 and 19. Lunch will be in Jefferson City, and eventually I will spend the night in Columbia for a meeting with the bishop and the Mission Council tomorrow. Yesterday I worked hard to prepare for being gone on Tuesday, recording a teaching session, writing a small group discussion guide, making phone calls and meeting with various groups. At home around dusk I mowed the front lawn while Audrey fixed a delicious fish dinner. The sermon yesterday addressed the topic “How to be humble when you know you are right.” It was well received as the completion of a three-part series aimed at preparing us to be Christ-like during this election season. It is a joy to preach the Word across the church family in all 4 Sunday morning worship services. Mark 12 Various parables and conversations of Jesus. Verses 29-31 contain his answer to the question about which of the commandments is the foremost of all? He quoted scripture stating that the “Lord our God is one” (Deut 6:4) “and you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength (Deut 6:5). He continued with “The second is this, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’” (Lev 19:18) This answer impressed the scribe who asked it, and down through the centuries has informed and shaped the followers of Christ with a focus upon loving God and loving people. Of the ten commandments, the first four concern loving God, the next six concern loving people. Guide me today, most holy Lord as I live to love you and to love others. May the fellowship of pastors on motorcycles be rich and uplifting. Keep us safe as we ride.

September 30, 2012

“No one is so empty as he who is full of himself.” This quote and others go through my head as I contemplate the topic of humility and my message today. Last night in my dreams I pictured an outfitter, someone who equips and sends out people into the wilderness, perhaps on horses. The outfitter is the expert, and his orientation is completely to the other, the people he for whom he is providing. His goal is not to prove that he is right, but to provide a safe and enjoyable experience for others. Philippians 2 Jesus emptied himself (literally in the greek “poured out himself”) taking the form (status) of a slave… and being found in human form he humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death – even death on a cross. (Message – He lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death – and the worst kind of death at that – a crucifixion.”) “Because of that obedience, God lifted him high and honored him far beyond anyone or anything, ever, so that all created beings in heaven and on earth – even those long ago dead and buried – will bow in worship before this Jesus Christ, and call out in praise that he is the Master of all, to the glorious honor of God the Father.” (9-11) This morning the question for Bruce Baxter is: how do I empty myself as Christ emptied himself? • Be filled with the knowledge and presence of God • Be attentive to the needs of others • Become obedient even to the point of death • Expect God to be the one who lifts me up (He doesn’t need my help!) Help me today, most Holy Lord, to be filled with your presence as I attend to the needs of others, obeying you in all things even to the point of death as I trust that you will raise me up in your time and according to your purposes.

September 29, 2012

The 43rd chapter of Isaiah begins with God stating through the prophet “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!” I read this chapter and take it very personally. In verse 21 it is said “The people whom I formed for Myself, will declare my praise.” In the margin of my Bible I have written “Yes Lord, I am one of those, and will declare your praise! 11-28-85; amen 3-6-89; Yes! 9-27-02; Again in 3-5-11. I continue to recognize that I am one of the people formed by God and I declare His praise. In 1985 I was pastoring Shiloh and Defiance, David was 11 months old and Bethany was not yet conceived. In March of 89 David was 4, Bethany was 6 months old, and I was pastoring in Wellsville and Middletown. In September of 2002 I was in my 12th year of pastoring SunRise, David was a senior in High School and Bethany was in 8th grade. In March of 2011 David and Danelle had been married for 2 years, Bethany was about to graduate from APU, and I was pastoring Wesley. These few notes in this Bible that Audrey gave me as an engagement present in 1982 have affirmed my love for God through several seasons of my life. This has been a busy week of pastoring! I have asked each of our staff to keep a time log for these last two weeks in September, which are pretty typical weeks. This is proving to be very helpful to me as I analyze my use of time and my priorities. Last night we had the children’s Fall Festival at Wesley from 5:30 -7:30 which provided a great opportunity for me to mingle and meet parents and grandparents of our Kids of Creation. I went to the gym and worked out afterward, first time for me to be there on a Friday night. Audrey and I had a late lunch date, and then were on our own for dinner. Last night she had dinner with our niece Lauren and they watched “so you think you can dance” over here at our house into the wee hours of the night. Today we have a funeral at Wesley led by Jim Massey, and I need to write and produce the teaching portion of the Spring 2013 Basic Grace material, complete my sermon, and sketch the outline for Oct 7 sermon and the series it begins. Steve and I will work on the LHS this afternoon, replacing some bushings under the carriage that holds the engine. I will take my day off on Monday to ride motorcycles with other United Methodist Pastors from around the state, and then will participate in the Mission Council of the annual conference led by the Bishop on Tuesday. Audrey is in her 7th week of teaching the college age Sunday school class, and she is really enjoying it. God has given her the gift of teaching and she is a great speaker. Wesley provides a context for her ministry, and I picture it continuing to expand. Guide me today, most Holy Lord as I live the abundant life, declaring Your praise through this season of late middle age with an empty nest.

September 23, 2012

I walked out barefoot to get the paper, and even though the air is chilly (45 degrees) and I can see my breath, the ground is still fairly warm. We are in the time of transition. Today is the first official day of autumn. This afternoon we have the church golf tournament, which I always enjoy. Yesterday I sat in section CCC at the Plaster football stadium with many people from Wesley and watched the Bears play the Salukis from SIU Carbondale, with Jackson MacLachlan their kicker. He made two extra points after touchdowns, and hit the upright on his one field goal attempt. I learned yesterday morning as he spoke at our men’s breakfast that Riad’s brother was killed in Saudi Arabia this week. Last night I learned that one of our members, who sang in the choir died of an apparent blood clot. Pastor Jerry spoke with her husband by phone. James 3 God has designed humans with the capacity to speak, and words become our greatest tools. Words also become dangerous weapons. In this chapter the writer describes the power of words, for good and for evil. He states that the tongue is set on fire by hell itself. He also states that this should not be, and there is a better way. In verse 17 he says “But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits …” I desire to continue walking and talking in the wisdom from above, making it the course of my life. Guide me today, most Holy Lord, that I may say the words that are healing, wholesome and that bring a harvest of righteousness sown in peace for those who make peace. Guard me from saying anything that is not from Your heart and according to your will. I desire to follow You and the example You set on earth in my speech, demeanor, actions and conduct. May it be so today. Amen.