December 31, 2011

Today I have three appointments – two with couples planning their weddings, one with a family concerning tomorrow’s baptism of their baby. I will work on my sermon and at my desk on administrative and leadership tasks. Tonight will be a regular Saturday night for us, as we prepare for Sunday morning and the four services. I imagine that attendance might be light tomorrow, given it is New Years Day, and I expect to have great worship experiences as we bring in the new year with a look at God’s will, and celebrate holy communion.

Yesterday was a good day at the church office. In addition to preparing the bulletin and other worship related items, there was the financial aspect of year end numbers and final contributions being received. It appears that Wesley will end the year in a positive financial position. In the afternoon I ran the outdoor track at the gym, recording a 7:30 mile, which in Galloway’s formula would equate to a hard marathon pace of 9:45 a mile. This is about what I expect, with 10 minute miles my goal. I learned of Dan Rich’s death in an auto accident – Dan was one of the early pioneer members at SunRise.

Revelation 22 – the last chapter in the Bible

It is good to read this chapter for my morning devotions. Throughout the day I will read the last chapter of the Old Testament, and the last Psalm. John begins this chapter with a description of the “river of the water of life, clear as crystal, coming from the throne of God and the Lamb in the middle of its street. And on either side of the river was the tree of life, bearing twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit every month; and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations.” (Verses 1-2)

This entire chapter is victorious, upbeat, and hopeful. Jesus promises to come quickly, and to render to every person according to their deeds. As I read it this morning, I am encouraged and inspired to live this day for Him, and every day fully in light of His reward, His coming, His promises, and His presence.

In this chapter, Jesus says that He is the alpha and omega (Verse 13). He also states that He is “the bright morning star.” (Verse 16) I worship Jesus, and as we just celebrated his nativity, I am daily aware of his Lordship and his reign in heaven and on earth.

Guide me today Lord as I walk through this last day of 2011. May my thoughts, words and actions glorify you in every way, all day, as I look forward to your coming, and to eternity around the throne with the tree of life.

December 30, 2011

Bethany is on a train to Chicago, Audrey and I had a good drive back from St. Louis, and I am preparing to go to the church office to work on sermon and bulletin for the weekend services and the new year. Watching the news on the Today Show I realize that my upcoming series entitled “Why?” will have daily applications. This morning there is a follow up story on the 5 people who died on Christmas day in a fire in Stamford, Connecticut. Such a tragedy. I am sure everyone involved is asking “why?” On a lighter note, they are teasing Matt Lauer about turning 54 today.

Revelation 21

In this next-to-last chapter of the Bible, John records his vision of a new heaven and new earth. As I read these 27 verses I am comforted, inspired, informed and challenged to live every day with the end in mind. The followers of Christ ultimately are on the winning side, with the final tremendous victory and eternally dwelling with God in the new Jerusalem.

“Look, God’s home is now among his people! He will live with them, and they will be his people. God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” (Verses 3-4) Between now and then, I will live in the midst of death, sorrow, crying and pain. As a pastor I will be present with people in their suffering, and try to make sense of what we all experience. I will live with the question “Why?” for the next 5 Sundays.

Guide me Lord on this Friday as 2011 comes to a close. I look forward with all believers to the new heaven and new earth. Lead me in your righteousness. Make my way plain before your face. Guard me from the darkness of sin and self. Shine “loves pure light” in and through me today.

December 27, 2011

I am beginning to return to a more normal schedule following the great Christmas celebrations at church and with family. Today we head to St. Louis for a visit with David and Danelle. The weather will be very nice for the rest of the year, highs near 50 and sunny. I will run each day. Sunset is at 5:03 today, and gets a little later each night. Audrey gave me gardening tools, and I can already anticipate the warmth of spring. (Even though winter has essentially just begun!)

Revelation 18 – The Fall of Babylon

The single theme in this chapter is the fall of the great city Babylon. It is the greatest city ever, and its wealth will be gone suddenly. Many will mourn for its loss. “For your merchants were the greatest in the world, and you deceived the nations with your sorceries. In your streets flowed the blood of the prophets and of God’s holy people and the blood of people slaughtered all over the world.” (Verses 23b-24)

As I read this chapter I wonder which city this actually will be in the end times. Is it New York? Tehran? Rome? Or could it be some city yet to become prominent? It is only speculation to try to figure this out, but the take away for me this morning is that God is judge of the whole world, and the evil and injustice perpetrated anywhere will be punished, even if it seems that for a season the wicked prosper.

Lord, as the sun rises in the east, I am remembering Silent Night, and in the third verse the phrase “the dawn of redeeming grace.” Thank you for your mercy and love for this sinner, saved by redeeming grace to reflect “loves pure light.” Use me today as your servant.

Organizing some of my books yesterday I found My Spiritual Diary by Dale Evans Rogers, fourth printing, April, 1956. Her opening words are “I am resolved to keep a spiritual accounting, that I may check on my soul’s progression or (may God forbid!) regression. So I set down here my faith, hope, philosophy and spiritual adventuring, that I may know how weak and strong I am. Put Your hand over mine, Lord God, that this writing may be honest and reverent.”

As I also regularly keep a spiritual journal with similar purpose, Dale Roger’s account will be helpful to read in a devotional way during the next few weeks.

December 26, 2011

Ahhh, the day after Christmas! Monday is regularly my sabbath, and today it is doubly so, with it being the national holiday also. I will run this morning, work around the house, pack for our trip to O’Fallon, and then host family for a delayed Christmas dinner tonight. Yesterday had an odd feel for many of us, with it being Christmas on a Sunday. We opened presents in the afternoon, and then took naps. I could not sleep, so I fired up the Concours and went on a 30 mile ride into the setting sun, down through Boaz. I began reading O’Reilly’s new book Killing Lincoln. It is a compelling narrative of the last 15 days of Lincoln’s life, including the last days of Lee and Grant battling it out.

Revelation 17

One of the angels from the previous chapter invites John to come and see the judgment of the great harlot that sits upon many waters. This chapter is an explanation of future judgment. The description is not easily understood, and down through the centuries many people have tried to apply various contemporary kings and countries to this vision. I am content to simply understand that there will be tremendous conflict, and I want to always carefully discern how to follow Jesus, and avoid the temptation to follow the powers and movements that lead away from Him.

Last night we watched Valkerie, a movie about the attempt to kill Hitler in 1944 and take over the government. The attempt failed, and there were many executions, including Bonhoeffer in 1945. The army officers involved recognized that Hitler was evil and had become his own country’s worst enemy. This was an epic struggle, in which Hitler dominated for a season, and brought ruin upon his country, Europe, and much of the world. Could such a thing happen again? Absolutely, and this 17th chapter of Revelation reveals global conflicts yet to come.

Guide me Lord as I live during this relatively peaceful era, aware of the struggle of good and evil, those who follow You and those who are seduced by the beast. Give me wisdom, discernment and courage as I live this day in the shelter of your wings.

December 25, 2011

Christmas morning!

We had 5 wonderful worship services yesterday. I especially enjoyed serving communion at each service. There were so many worshippers whom I did not recognize, and whom I pray will find a spiritual home at Wesley and become part of this ministry. Audrey played the piano, Bethany sang with Brian Matson, and the Light of Christ was proclaimed.

This morning we will have two worship services – one at 10:30 in the gym, one at 11:00 in the sanctuary. Jim Massey will preach at both. It is unusual for Christmas day to be on Sunday, happening every 6 years or so. The last time it happened I was not pastoring, but serving on the conference staff and I hardly noticed the scheduling issues it presents. So it is Christmas morning, there is no Sunday School or first two worship services. The Baxters will not open presents until this afternoon. We will worship Christ the King with a faithful congregation this morning, and then enjoy a sabbath rest.

Revelation 16

The seven bowls of the wrath of God are poured out by the seven angels upon the earth. I read this chapter this morning with the question I posed last night – what is real? How do we know? This is an interesting chapter to read on Christmas morning, the day we celebrate the tender baby Jesus being born. And it is a great chapter to read on Christmas morning, to remember that God’s wrath is real, and those who ignore God, who trivialize Him, who rebel against Him, who chose darkness rather than light will be punished, and God will triumph for all time!

Guide me today most Holy Lord as I worship you in Spirit and in Truth, serving among your people called Wesley United Methodist Church in Springfield Missouri.

December 24, 2011

There is a quietness during this morning hour as I prepare for a long and fruitful day of pastoral ministry. We will host 5 worship services at Wesley, and I will preach the same message 5 times. I will spend a couple of hours fine tuning this 12 minute “Love’s Pure Light” message this morning. This will be my 25th Christmas Eve to lead worship, and the day always has a feel that is unique – partly it feels like a Sunday, but the morning is so quiet, the worship is different, and the expectations are so varied. Many people will come grieving the loss of loved ones, families with children come with great expectation, devoted followers of Christ come to worship the King whose second coming they anticipate, and seekers come, wondering if the Christmas story is real, if it has any relevance for their lives.

I have not written in this my journal for a couple of days, as I have had morning appointments – hospital visits, dentist visit, etc. Thus my blog has been silent. I have continued to read and meditate upon the daily scripture from the One Year Bible, as it marches through the book of Revelation.

Revelation 15

John sees seven angels with seven plagues, and a sea of glass mixed with fire, and standing on this sea are those who had come off victorious from the beast and from his image. “And they sang the song of Moses, the bond-servant of God and the song of the Lamb saying:
“Great and marvelous are Thy works, O Lord God, the Almighty; Righteous and true are Thy ways, Thou King of the nations. Who will not fear, O Lord, and glorify Thy name? For thou alone art holy; For all the Nations will come and worship before Thee, For thy righteous acts have been revealed.” (Verses 3-4)

In these verses I see revealed the language and the pattern of true worship – attributing to God His nature, character, His works and the response of coming to worship before Him. Marva Dawn has written a book entitled How Shall We Worship, which is based on Psalm 96. Reading Revelation 15, remembering these words recorded by John described as “The Song of Moses and the Song of the Lamb” my heart is drawn to worship the king on this morning of celebrating the birth of Jesus almost 2000 years ago.

Guide me today most holy Lord as I worship you during this brief earthly journey, and as I lead multiple services of praise and worship in the sanctuary at Wesley, and in the gym. I worship You this morning here in my house, and each place I go today I am singing your praises, especially praising You for “love’s pure light.”

December 21, 2011

It feels good to be up early on this Wednesday. My 18 mile run went well on Monday, completed in 3 hours 26 minutes, which was the time of my first marathon in 1981. With 6 ½ weeks to go until the Feb 5 marathon in California, I am feeling on track to complete it comfortably using the Galloway method of run-walk-run. Bethany flies in today to the new Branson airport on Frontier airline. It appears that the snow has cleared up that blanketed Colorado and Kansas yesterday. It will be so good to see her again and spend some time together over the next 2 weeks.

Revelation 12 - The Woman and the Dragon

This is a colorful and challenging chapter of scripture. I have read J. Ramsey Michaels’ commentary on Revelation for perspective. Remarkably, this chapter of Revelation is a description of the nativity – the birth of Jesus. Verse 5 “And she gave birth to a son, a male child, who is to rule all the nations with a rod of iron; and her child was caught up to God and to His throne.” Verse 9 describes the “great dragon … the serpent of old who is called the devil and Satan, who deceives the whole world…” This one “stood before the woman who was about to give birth, so that when she gave birth he might devour her child.” (Verse 4)

Reading the graphic images of this chapter four days before Christmas is powerful. I realize the eternal impact of the birth of Christ the conflict this caused in heaven and on earth. The conflict continues – evil is so very present on earth. “And the dragon was enraged with the woman, and went off to make war with the rest of her offspring, who keep the commandments of God and hold to the testimony of Jesus.” (Verse 17) I see this conflict playing out in world events and in communities around the Ozarks. I see it within the church, and within individuals.

The good news is that “Now the salvation, and the power, and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren has been thrown down, who accuses them before our God day and night.” (Verse 10)

Guide me today Lord as I live in the times between time. Today in the northern hemisphere is the winter solstice, the day the darkness peaks. Lead me in your light. Allow me to live as one who overcomes the darkness, evil, injustice just as you have overcome the world. Guard me from all the accusations of the evil one. Today I will hold to the testimony of Jesus, in the fullness of that witness.

December 19, 2011

Kim Jong Il, dictator of North Korea, the son of the founder of North Korea, died of a heart attack yesterday at 69. His young son is in line to lead the country, and much uncertainty surrounds the region. This is a tough issue to deal with, as South Korea and its capitol are so vulnerable to an attack from the north.

Yesterday was a good day of worship and witness as our children led Christmas programs in the gym at 9:30 and 10:45, in addition to the three services in the sanctuary. We now have this week to get ready for Christmas Eve, and the 5 services. Last night Audrey and I went to see the lights and a show at Silver Dollar City. It was a beautiful night, temperature in the mid 50s, and the Charles Dickens Christmas Carol was masterfully produced. We sat next to a hospice chaplain, and in front of a seminary professor, with whom we had great conversation.

Today I am scheduled to go on a long run, 18-19 miles in preparation for the Feb 5 marathon. Rain is in the forecast, and my body is resisting the thought of 3 ½ hours on the road. I will be out the door in about 30 minutes and see how it goes.

Revelation 10

The angel who stands with his right foot on the sea and his left foot on the land has a small scroll open in his hand. John hears the angel call out, and seven thunders answer with a roar. As he is about to write down what the thunders have said he heard a voice speak from heaven not to write it down. This leaves us who read this writing to wonder what exactly the seven thunders said. I am comfortable accepting that there are things that I am not privy to in the kingdom of God, and in this temporal life also. I must be diligent to pay attention to the things that are revealed, and to the areas in which I have responsibility.

Psalm 138

Verse 3: “You answered me when I called to you; with your strength you strengthened me.” Yes Lord! You have answered this man when I call to you, and I live in your strength. Guide me today as I push this body deeper into the training and further down the road to fitness. Guide my steps, guard my heart, strengthen my mind according to your will and plan. I am yours most holy Lord.

December 17, 2011

At 9:00 this morning a group of men from Wesley will help Richard Fine and his family move in to his home in Battlefield. Richard has been appointed to launch a new church here in Springfield, probably between Battlefield and Republic. I will be there to say hello, then spend the morning working on my sermon "Jesus the Light of Love." This afternoon I have two appointments related to future weddings, then exercise, then home to continue to prepare for Sunday. Last night Audrey and I enjoyed attending a party for the Ozark Flying club, and developing new friendships.

Revelation 8

“When the lamb broke open the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven for about half an hour.” What a glorious and awesome event, the breaking of the seventh seal. I look forward to that day. It is in fact a terrible day, when on earth these events will bring death and destruction. But it is the beginning of the end, and those who follow Christ, whose names are written in the book of life will be saved. The people of the way will cheer!

Today Lord I celebrate your victory, and look forward to all the events prophesied in Revelation. May I live this day in light of your coming judgment, and also practice praising you as I will do for eternity.

December 16, 2011

I arose early and made two hospital visits. Now I am at my desk with a cup of coffee, and will consider Sunday’s scripture during these minutes of quiet reflection. Last night we had a very good church council meeting and approved the 2012 budget. It will be a year in which I need to have a systematic emphasis upon stewardship and generosity. Today I will write Sunday’s sermon, meet with one of the staff, and record a radio Christmas spot for Wesley. Tonight Audrey and I will attend a party for the Ozark Flying club, hosted by two of the pilots. I flew the Cherokee yesterday morning and made 4 great landings and lots of maneuvering around the airport as 6 Chinook helicopters where leaving.

I John 1

“This, in essence, is the message we heard from Christ and are passing on to you: God is light, pure light; there’s not a trace of darkness in him.” (Verse 5) This morning after visiting the hospital I witnessed the light of the sun beginning to climb above the eastern horizon. My heart was warmed, my spirit lifted. There is something intangible about light. Darkness can have the opposite effect – coldness, secrets, evil, and death happen in the darkness.

“But if we walk in the light, God himself being the light, we also experience a shared life with one another…” (Verse 7) Living in the light of God leads to the shared life, or fellowship with one another. Love does not happen in a vacuum. The body of Christ provides the tangibility of love as the light of Christ is fleshed out.

Guide me today, most holy Lord as I walk in your light, and live out your love. Guard me from any darkness, any doubt. Lead me powerfully among the children of light during these uncertain days. I pray that your light would emanate from my soul.

December 15, 2011

Today I have blocked off some time to regroup and refresh. Tonight we have our final church council meeting of the year. It has been a good and also hard year in the life of Wesley. As the finance committee has labored over the budget for next year, I am looking forward to how God will move and bring fruit to the ministries of His body in 2012. As a pastor I have been strengthened and sustained to serve in this context. Just as my body is responding to the increased stress of the additional miles I am running in preparation for the marathon, my spirit has responded to the increased stress of the change and turmoil within the body of Christ.

Revelation 6

The Lamb breaks open the seals on the scroll one at a time, and various events unfold. After the first seal a white horse appears with a rider holding a bow and he was given a crown. After the breaking of the second seal a red horse comes out, its rider given the power to bring war on earth. A black horse appears after the third seal is broken, holding a pair of scales. When the fifth seal is broken John sees underneath the altar “the souls of those who had been killed because they had proclaimed God’s word and had been faithful in their witnessing.” (Verse 9) As I read this I picture those who have been martyred, such at Bonhoeffer, Paul, Peter, and including those during my generation who have been killed because of their faith. In this vision of heaven, the writer states “each of them was given a white robe, and they were told to rest a little while longer, until the complete number of other servants and believers were killed, as they had been.” (Verse 11)

At the opening of the six seal there was a violent earthquake, the sun became black and the moon turned completely red as the stars fell to earth. The sky disappeared like a scroll being rolled up and every mountain and island was moved from its place. It is hard to imagine such an event. I have often pictured these events happening as a result of a nuclear war on the earth. As I grew up during the “cold war” there was great concern that the U.S.S.R. and the U.S.A. would engage in such a war. Those days are past, but the tensions around the world between nations that do have nuclear weapons continue to heat up.

Today O Lord, I live with the hope of the resurrection. I have not suffered persecution. I bear the marks of the struggle and stress of the local church and life in community. I look forward to the time in which You will break the seals of the scroll. In my life Lord, be glorified. In my speech, my actions, my thoughts may your love and perfect will be embodied. Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil. For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory forever! Amen.

December 13, 2011

There is a cozy feeling this morning in this room (5:35 am) as I hear the raindrops on the skylight and feel the warmth of the gas fire. My trip to Columbia yesterday was interrupted by a squealing fan belt in the LHS. As I pulled off highway 63 south of Jefferson City, the noise stopped and I could smell burning rubber. Lifting the hood, there was no apparent damage, and the engine ran fine. I drove tentatively into Columbia and then home to Springfield with no additional problems. My hunch is that my air conditioning compressor seized up, and then broke loose. It will probably need to be replaced. It is interesting to go from a quiet drive to the uncertainty of a car that might not make it to the destination.

The book we discussed with the Bishop in Columbia was Kendra Creasy Dean’s Almost Christian. She will be a speaker at the upcoming Annual Conference in June. We considered the question “why are there so few people in our churches who are fervent prayers, who know and love the scriptures, and who serve confidently from a sense of being called and equipped? Arriving back in Springfield I went straight to the gym to work out, getting 60 pathetically lame minutes on the elliptical machine. At home I caught a little of the Rams on Monday night football, did some work on church financials, made a phone call to encourage a leader and thoroughly enjoyed a phone conversation with my daughter.

Today I have a full day of meetings, planning, and visits. I will work on sermon planning following morning devotions. The finance committee meets tonight for final consideration of the 2012 budget which it will present to the church council on Thursday night. On Thursday evening I will also present my final recommendation for worship times on Sunday Morning. This has occupied much thought and energy this year as a result of one of the prescriptions and the task force that has met regularly.

Revelation 4

Following the 7 letters to the churches, John looks and sees a door standing open in heaven, and in the spirit he visits heaven. He sees a throne and “One” sitting on the throne. 24 thrones were around this throne with 24 elders, clothed in white garments and with golden crowns on their heads. Seven lamps which are the “seven Spirits of God” were burning before the throne. A sea of glass like crystal was before the throne, and four living creatures around the throne. “They do not cease to say ‘Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God, the Almighty, who was and who is and who is to come.” (Verse 8) The 24 elders fall down before Him who sits on the throne, casting their crowns before Him and saying “Worthy art Thou, our Lord and our God, to receive glory and honor and power; for Thou didst create all things, and because of Thy will they existed, and were created.” (Verse 11)

Many hymns and worship songs have been written around the images and language of this chapter. Reading it this morning my heart stirs within me as I sing “Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God almighty, early in the morning my song shall rise to Thee….” And “Thou art worthy, to receive glory… for thou hast created, all things hast created…” On Saturday I led a memorial service for a saint who is now in heaven, casting her crown around the throne, singing, dancing, and living the reality of heaven in the presence of God.

Today Lord, on earth as it is in heaven I desire to sing your praises, dance for joy, bow before you and live empowered by your Spirit. Guard me from the things of this earth that would pull my attention from you. Thank you for this glimpse, this vision of heavenly realities while I am still on this side of the curtain. Use me today in radiant ways, most holy Lord.

December 11, 2011

Yesterday was a busy day! I exercised at the gym in the morning, prepared for and led the funeral, hosted a table at the mission dinner and opened/closed the evening musical. This morning at 8:15 and 11 the musical will be presented, and at 9:30 and 10:30 Pastor Mi Hyeon will be preaching.

I had an unusual dream last night. I was outside of church, but the facility was not Wesley. Two vans of painters were there on Sunday morning to start remodeling. I tried to find their foreman, and was delayed getting to the worship service. There was some confusion whether my watch was accurate or an hour behind – was it 8:30 or 9:30? This was a dream from which I was happy to be awakened.

Rev 2:18-29; 3:1-6

I have often found great benefit in reading the letters of Jesus to the 7 churches found in chapters 2 and 3. When I was a church planter, I led a Bible study covering these letters as a foundation for starting a new church. In today’s reading from the one year Bible, we have the letters to Thyatira and Sardis.

Jesus says “I know your deeds, and your love and faith and service and perseverance, and that your deeds of late are greater than at first.” This would be good for any church to hear from its Bridegroom. I hope that Wesley would be commended in this way. Love and faith are tangible in deeds and service. There is a crescendo of deeds getting greater, no backing off. May this be true of my ministry also.

Jesus does have something against this church – they “tolerate the woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess, and she teaches and leads my bond-servants astray, so that they commit acts of immorality and eat things sacrificed to idols.” It is not exactly clear what is meant in this condemnation. The warning for me is to be ever so careful in discerning the motives and the fruit of individuals in the church. Unfortunately many churches “tolerate” people who are destructive to the body. In verse 21 Jesus says “I gave her time to repent; and she does not want to repent for her immorality.” Much care must be given to these matters in each church.

To the church in Sardis Jesus says “I know your deeds, that you have a name that you are alive, but you are dead. Wake up and strengthen the things that remain, which were about to die; for I have not found your deeds completed in the sight of My God.” (Rev. 3:1b-2) This could describe any number of churches today. I could see a whole book being written about how to “strengthen the things that remain.” This could be a great approach to visioning for churches – to discern what it is that remains, that could be strengthened, which were about to die.

Guide me today most Holy, Living Lord as I serve you through the church.

December 10, 2011

I have been outside to look at the moon. The eclipse starts around 6:46 as the moon is setting. There is an ice fog into which the moon is sinking on the western horizon. The total eclipse will not be visible from Missouri, as it will happen after the moon is below the horizon.

Today I will officiate at the memorial service for Norma Stroebe at 2:00 pm. At 5:30 we host a dinner for women and children whom we have invited to the 7:00 pm Christmas musical. I will exercise this morning at the gym and then work around the house before heading to church before noon to begin final preparation for the funeral. This is a busy time of year, with many opportunities to serve Christ through His body the church.

Amos 1-3

The shepherd-prophet from Tekoa announces God’s judgment upon Damascus, Gaza, Tyre, Edom, Ammon, Moab, and also Judah and Israel. In chapter 3, verse 8 he says “a lion has roared! Who will not fear? The Lord God has spoken! Who can but prophesy?” The content of these chapters seems remote and a little strange to read on this day in December in the Ozarks. And they remind me that God is God, that He speaks to His people, and desires their devotion. I am also reminded that all of life is within His sight, and every action, whether righteous or evil will be ultimately rewarded, even if in this life it seems that people get away with murder, and good deeds go unnoticed.

Guide me today Lord as I proclaim your word, witness to the faithfulness of one of your precious daughters, and live with faith and zeal for your kingdom. Bless the Christmas Musical and all those who participate.

December 9, 2011

“Yet even now, declares the Lord, return to Me with all your heart, and with fasting, weeping and mourning; and rend your heart and not your garments. Now return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, abounding in lovingkindness, and relenting of evil.” (Joel 2:12-13) The prophet has been given a message for the people of God living in Judah around 835 B.C. He uses the historical plague of locusts experienced in his day followed by a severe draught to call the leaders to proclaim a solemn assembly for national sorrow, repentance, and deliverance. In chapter two he becomes the prophet of pentecost, seeing a day when God will pour out his spirit on all flesh.(Joel 2:28)

As I read these first two chapters I am reminded that God is God. That God loves His people, desires all people to experience his love. I remember that God gives messages to his servants, and his call always is for people to come to him with broken hearts and humility. He is slow to anger and abounds in lovingkindness. My privilege is to proclaim this among his people in my generation, and to extend his gracious invitation to those around who are spiritually asleep.

Simply following the One Year Bible reading plan has brought me to read the great prophet Joel this morning. My spirit is refreshed with this message of God’s judgment, God’s invitation, and God’s promise that “I will pour out My Spirit on all humankind.” Like those who have lived and died before me, today I will walk in the power and the presence of Christ in me, the hope of glory. May it be so, most holy Lord.

December 8, 2011

The month marches on! It was good to share a Christmas lunch with the Wesley staff yesterday. I met with several people throughout the day, and in the evening met to plan Norma Stroebe’s funeral. I will prepare the bulletin and order of worship today. I am looking forward to breakfast with a retired pastor, another interview for a potential new staff, a meeting with Rainbow network and a couple of coaching calls this afternoon. Tonight the Staff Parish Relations committee meets to consider staffing and salaries for 2012.

Jude

This epistle was written either by Jesus’ half brother or possibly a cousin of Jesus, depending on who the James is that he refers to as his brother. His main theme is to counter the false teaching that threatens the church. He says “these are the ones who cause divisions, worldly-minded, devoid of the Spirit.” (Verse19) It seems that Jude and Peter were very concerned with the rapid infiltration of false teachers into the fledgling church.

Beginning in verse 20, Jude turns his attention away from false teachers and encourages the church: “But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith; praying in the Holy Spirit; keep yourselves in the love of God, waiting anxiously for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to eternal life.” (Verses 20-21) I hear these words coming directly to Bruce Baxter this morning – to be building myself up on a most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keeping myself in the love of God while waiting anxiously for the mercy of Jesus to eternal life.

In verses 22-23 Jude describes three different approaches to different types of people – mercy on those who are doubting, on others snatch them from the fire, and for still others have mercy with fear, hating even the garment polluted by the flesh. This reminds me that the gospel must be applied individually, and there is no “one size fits all” in ministry.

The words of verses 24-25 have been used in the church as benediction language, and this morning I take them to heart: “Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior ...

Guide my steps today, most Holy Lord, keep me from stumbling, and let me stand in the presence of your glory blameless with great joy. As I live fully this 8th day of December, I follow your leading and serve you with obedience.

December 7, 2011

Today is the 70th anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor. Last night while Audrey and I were preparing Christmas gifts for the staff of Wesley we had the 2001 Pearl Harbor movie on the TV. My mother lost friends at Pearl Harbor who were on the Arizona. It is hard to imagine the gravity of the Japanese decision to make a surprise attack on the Pacific fleet, and the resulting 4 years of carnage, culminating with the atomic bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki in Japan, the first on August 6, 1945, and the second on August 9, 1945. The coordinated attack of 9-11-01 by al-Qaeda was compared to Pearl Harbor, killing about the same number of Americans, and also resulting in wars lasting 10 years in Afghanistan and Iraq.

Today in Springfield Missouri there is relative peace. The last American troops are coming home from Iraq by the end of the month, and our troops in Afghanistan only occasionally make the news with reports of military deaths. It is ominous to think about who might be planning the next surprise attack, or what forces are at work behind the scenes to cause destruction or decline. I believe it is helpful to ponder how God is at work in ways invisible to the human eye and the news media, to bring about good and advance His kingdom. The church is a big part of that plan, and it is my privilege to have a leadership role in the United Methodist branch of the church. The weight of this role is heavy, and the reach is broad. I must daily be strengthened by God’s powerful presence and promises to move forward with confidence and courage.

I John 3:1-14

The Apostle writes this short letter to Gaius, commending him for “walking in truth.” John goes on to say “you are acting faithfully in whatever you accomplish for the brethren, and especially when they are strangers” (Verse 5). This morning I desire to continue walking in truth and acting faithfully in whatever I accomplish for the brethren. This involves a regular attention to God’s word, faithful preparation for weekly worship, careful design of discipleship systems, investment in the lives of leaders and also the least, the lost and the lonely. Today my opportunity is to encourage the men and women who serve on the Wesley church staff at the lunch today. I will use this chapter of scripture to do so.

Verses 6-8 commend Gaius for supporting those who “went out for the sake of the Name”. John states that when we support such people we are “fellow workers with the truth.”

In this letter Diotrephes is mentioned as one who “loves to be first” and rejects what the apostle says (verse 9). Demetrius “has received a good testimony from everyone, and from the truth itself” (verse 12). The church is made up of all kinds of people, including modern Diotrephes and Demetriuses.
The apostle closes with the words “peace be to you. The friends greet you. Greet the friends by name” (Verse 14). May it be so, that peace would be the operative principle among the followers of Christ.

Lord, may this day unfold in ways that please you. May my words, actions, countenance, and presence be a walking in truth and acting faithfully in whatever I accomplish for the believers. Use me as your servant.

December 6, 2011

I am still feeling the effects of the 16 miles I ran yesterday at just under a 12 minute mile pace. Audrey and I worked around the house, as we decided to move the staff Christmas party to the church, instead of here at our house. In the evening we went out to dinner and then saw Tower Heist, which was better than we thought it would be.

This morning I will pray with two early surgeries, pray with the staff at 9:15, worship planning at 9:45, spring 2012 planning at 11:30, and staff planning over the noon hour.

2 John

The Apostle greets a “very special woman and her children.” This seems to be
language of greeting to a church, written during dangerous persecution in language that was not direct or explicit. The gist of this short epistle is to obey the truth, believing that Jesus Christ came in the flesh and to avoid the heresy being circulated that he did not have a human body. John also exhorts the recipients of this letter to love each other. Believe, love, obey – similar to his teaching in I John.

Today is the day that you have made, most Holy Lord. A light dusting of snow has surprised the weather forecasters. As I walk with you I expect surprises all along the way. Guide my steps, my heart, and my mind as I apply all to serving you today.

December 5, 2011

Olive oil, motor oil, cod liver oil – illustrations I used for peace with God, peace with self, and peace with others yesterday. These seemed to work well on this communion Sunday on which we brought white Christmas gifts for people in Honduras, Harmony House, Rare Breed and toys for Crosslines. Today I plan a long run in the cold morning, using Galloway’s method. It will take most of 3 ½ hours and should allow me to have more energy and initiative for the rest of the day. We host the staff Christmas party on Wednesday, and will be spending all available time between now and then getting ready.

I John 5

“If we believe that Jesus is truly Christ, we are God’s children. Everyone who loves the Father will also love his children. If we love and obey God, we know that we will love his children. We show our love for God by obeying his commandments, and they are not hard to follow. Every child of God can defeat the world, and our faith is what gives us this victory.” (I John 5:1-4) As I read these sentences penned by the Apostle John in his later years, there is a simplicity about these instructions –believe in Jesus, obey his commandments, love his children. It is good for me to receive this from the apostle that Jesus’ loved. I am a pastor of a large and complex church with many activities. Believe, love and obey were the three words in John Wesley’s seal, and I wonder if he derived them from this chapter.

Guide me today most holy Lord as I believe You are the Christ, as I obey your commands and as I love your children on this 5th day of December.

December 3, 2011

Last night Audrey and I enjoyed the bi-district clergy Christmas party hosted by Kingsway. The program was improvisational comedy by two local comedians who really entertained us. I had good conversations with pastors and their spouses around the room. Many pastors are experiencing pain from difficult situations in their churches. One asked if I would consider conducting a visioning session in January.

Yesterday I worked well on my sermon, withdrawing to the Hebrews Coffee shop with my laptop, had good meetings with staff and staff-parish members, and worked on correspondence and tasks. Today I will attend the Men’s group breakfast, stop by the college student room where care packages are being prepared, and attend the annual UMW Christmas brunch with the installation of officers. I have the afternoon to exercise, work on sermon and perhaps make a home visit.

I John 3:7-24

“God wants us to have faith in his son Jesus Christ and to love each other. This is also what Jesus taught us to do.” (Verse 23) As I sit here this morning with the gas fire warming up the room, this verse impacts me as a simple and direct word – believe in Jesus and love each other. Today as I go about the work of pastoring, I will cultivate faith in Christ, and share with all I meet the love God has given me for the people of Wesley and for all people, including those who do not yet recognize the need for a shepherd.

Guide my steps, my words, my countenance most holy Lord. I am your servant, privileged to live in this era, serving you in this church.

November 30, 2011

It is good to be up early, to have the gas fireplace on and a fresh cup of coffee. I will open the Word as I prepare for this day which the Lord has given me. I have several meetings, including a breakfast, Christmas eve planning, potential staff interview, directors staff and program budget planning, and a site visit to a pastor’s church who is up for ordination this spring.

1 John 1

“The Word that gives life was from the beginning, and this is the one our message is about. Our ears have heard, our own eyes have seen, and our hands touched this Word.” (Verse 1) The apostle John is writing about his first-hand experience with Jesus, the Word made flesh. Last night at our life group we read the first verses of the Gospel of John in which the apostle describes how God sent the Word from the beginning. This word truly is life-giving and full of light and love.

“But if we live in the light, as God does, we share in life with each other. And the blood of his Son Jesus washes all our sins away.” (Verse 7) Living in the light is the habitation of the believer. Darkness is the residence of evil and all who desire to hide their sins. It is curious to me how in the church there exists angst and conflict in a community of light. This happens down through history and across cultures. Thomas Merton experienced it in his monastery, I witnessed it in seminary, I see it in churches across Missouri, including Wesley. The key seems to be to continue to live in the light and to shine the light into every dark corner.

Guide me today most holy Lord as I live in the light of your love and carry that light into every meeting, every relationship that I share today and each day during this holiday season.

November 29, 2011

Yesterday I ran 6, including a timed mile which I completed in 7:48. According to Galloway’s marathon math, this indicates I could complete a marathon, running at a hard pace, in about 4:25. Galloway suggests that his readers consider a different approach to marathoning – running for fun at a slower pace. I have completed 3, always with a time goal in mind. I have dreaded the long runs the last 15 years, and I have never taken nutrition along the way in a marathon. I am going to try Galloway’s run-walk-run method, extending my long runs further out than before and at the slower pace he recommends. I will also allow 2 weeks between long runs for recovery. I have in mind that I could run the Feb 5 marathon in around 4:30. My stated goal is to complete a marathon in each decade, and the pace is only secondary. Qualifying for Boston would be great, but would require a 3:40 (8:23/Mile) for my age group.

2 Peter 3

The apostle continues in his teaching about the Lord’s return to judge the earth. He gives practical instructions to the readers of his letter: “My friends, while you are waiting, you should make certain that the Lord finds you pure, spotless, and living at peace. (Peace is the advent theme for this 2nd week.) Don’t forget that the Lord is patient because he wants people to be saved. This is also what our dear friend Paul said when he wrote you with the wisdom that God had given him.” (Verses 14-15)

Pure, spotless, living at peace – This is clear, applicable instructions to any believer on any day. For Bruce Baxter this means a regular monitoring of thoughts, actions, and relationships. As a maturing believer, 34 years into this journey, attention to my thoughts, actions and relationships is at the center of my discipleship, and this fresh reminder this morning is like polishing the existing metal, so that it does not grow tarnished. I do have thoughts that pop into my thinking that I regularly expel, like the blood system wraps up and expels germs. My actions are always public and my goal is complete authenticity in living a blameless life. There are some relationships that are difficult, mainly within the church with folks who don’t like some aspect of the decision making or worship service. I endeavor to live at peace with everybody, as much as lies within me.

Peter’s final verse, our last record of his thoughts before he was executed for his faith: “Let the wonderful kindness and the understanding that come from our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ help you to keep on growing. Praise Jesus now and forever! Amen.” My desire is to keep on growing through the wonderful kindness and the understanding that come from Jesus Christ. It is always a possibility that believers will slow down or stop growing. I need to make sure I do not get into a rut and lose the cutting edge of spiritual growth and development.

Guide me through this day, most precious Lord. Lead my thoughts, actions, and relationships that each may be reflective of your wonderful love and peace.

November 28, 2011

2 Peter 2
The apostle raises the issue of false teachers in the church. He reminds the readers that in the former days false prophets spoke to the people of Israel. It seems that these false teachers are like Balaam, who have gone down the wrong path and are motivated by selfish ambition and pleasure. As I read this chapter it stands out as being beyond my experience. In my ministry I have not faced this problem in the church. I am aware that across Christianity there are false teachers, but I have not had to deal with this other than at a philosophical level.

My goal is to daily search the scriptures, to constantly hone and sharpen my understanding of scripture and the pastoral ministry. I am blessed to be appointed to Wesley, a church with a rich and healthy history, and a bright and promising future. Leading into the healthy future with a clear mission and vision is a joy and is all consuming.

Guide me holy Lord on this Monday.

November 26, 2011

“The end of all things is near; therefore be serious and discipline yourselves for the sake of your prayers. Above all, maintain constant love for one another, for love covers a multitude of sins. Be hospitable to one another without complaining. (I Peter 4:7-9)

“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. Discipline yourselves, keep alert. Like a roaring lion your adversary the devil prowls around, looking for someone to devour. Resist him, steadfast in your faith…” (I Peter 5:6-9)

These two sections, from chapters 4 and 5 speak to me on this dreary Saturday: Be serious and be disciplined. William Law wrote A Serious Call to a Devout and Holy Life (1729) and this book strongly impacted John Wesley. For me today, the admonition to be serious resonates with my orientation and practice of the last 34 years. Today that means to carefully apply myself to the preparation of the word for sermon tomorrow and funeral tonight. It means seriously applying myself to each interaction with people throughout the day, knowing that I bring the presence of Christ to each conversation. To be disciplined for me today means to stay focused on priorities. As I scanned my journal from 2006 looking for marathon notes I realized the steps I outlined in early January, which had I pursued with discipline would have ended up the year further ahead. Training for a marathon always involves discipline, which then can be applied to other endeavors. For me, it has to be writing and developing resources.

Resist the devil – this admonition reminds me that “we labor not against flesh and blood but against powers and principalities… This life is a spiritual conflict, the devil is real, evil is present and as a follower of Christ I must live this life as a soldier in an armed conflict.

Guide me holy Lord as I navigate this day. Thank you for the words of your servant James, as they admonish me to be serious, disciplined, and to resist the evil one.

Today I will work hard on my sermon for tomorrow, visit a nursing home at the request of Norma’s daughter, meet with a couple about their January 14th wedding, and conduct the funeral for Jim Morris in Rogersville at 6 pm. My legs are a little tired from the 6 miles yesterday, and I am encouraged from reading Galloway’s book on marathon training and his technique of run-walk-run. He suggests training on the long run at a pace 2 minutes a mile slower than a person’s optimal marathon pace.
[The following is a excerpt from my 2006 journal concerning that marathon]

4-9-06 Sunday 8:00 pm Columbia Missouri
I have completed my third marathon, with my family attending and supporting.
I finished in 4:37 and change. I am relatively pleased with the performance, would always liked to have done better. I signed up for the 4:20 pace team, ran with them til 5 miles, lost track of the pace leader, then from 7 til 15 was about 3 minutes ahead of the 4:20 pace. I completed the half marathon in 2:07, right at my time for last year, when all I was running was the half. In fact, last year I was so relieved to turn with the half-marathoners at the 9 mile mark, knowing there was no way I could have completed 26. Today, when they turned for the half, I had a sense of relish and excitement at the thought of completing the whole.

At 17 ½ the pace leader and 4 or 5 others passed me, and I could not pick up my sagging pace. I did not hit a recognizable wall, and in fact welcomed the 18 mile marker, feeling pretty well. I missed seeing the 19 mile marker, and was struggling by the time I got to the 20.

I knew I would finish, and reveled in the fact that I was running further than ever in 10 years. My legs and my pace struggled from that point forward. A guy named Dave told a couple of good jokes, which helped me pick up the pace. I finished up running with a day-trader from orange county who was really running awkwardly due to a tight groin muscle. A volunteer on a bike even asked him if he needed assistance, which he declined. It was so good to see my family near the finish line, which I tried to discern for several blocks, and then appeared sooner then I expected. It was such a blessing to have my family with me Saturday night and Sunday.

November 25, 2011

Turkey trot in finished in 26:50 (8:40 per mile), almost 2 minutes better than my 28:47 last year. I have always known that regular workouts increase one’s capacity, but it is refreshing to see the benefit in actual results. I placed 1110th overall, 34th out of 181 men my age (55-59).

I Peter 3:

“Honor Christ and let him be the Lord of your life. Always be ready to give an answer when someone asks you about your hope.” (I Peter 3:15) This is a simple, direct admonition with infinite implications. To honor Christ and to let him be the Lord of your life is the gist of discipleship. This is the heart of the life of faith. I desire to fully live out this instruction from Peter. He might not have had me in mind 2000 years ago when he wrote it, but in God’s infinite capacity He knew me. Even as I search the results from yesterday’s turkey trot and am amazed at the detail and capacity of the technology that records and reports the results, I believe that God knows everything all the time, a capacity that is unimaginable.

My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteous. I dare not trust the sweetest frame, but wholly lean on Jesus’ name. The words of this great hymn of the church are my words this morning as the sky begins to lighten with the dawn of a new day. Guide me today most holy Lord as I honor you and live patiently with you as Lord of my life. Use me to teach and demonstrate this lordship to others near and far.

November 24, 2011

In 45 minutes I leave for the Turkey Trot. Last year it was a great experience, and I am hoping to enjoy it again today. I have been training harder this year than last, as I prepare for the Feb 5 marathon, and I am in an older (55-59) age group than I was last year. I will pick up Lauren and her friend from Wales Natasha at 6:45. Then this afternoon we will host the Collettes for dinner. Yesterday was quiet around the office, and I made good progress in several areas.

I Peter 2:11-3:7

“Dear friends, you are foreigners and strangers on this earth. So I beg you not to surrender to those desires that fight against you.” (I Peter 2:11) This world is not my home, a fact that I remember often. Peter does not specify what the desires are that fight against the “pilgrims”, but they relate to the desires of the flesh and ego for gratification, pleasure, status, fame, and too many more to name. On Sunday my sermon is titled “How to wait with hope” and I will address the issue of combating “those desires that fight against you.”

“If you are a husband, you should be thoughtful of your wife. Treat her with honor, because she isn’t as strong as you are, and she shares with you in the gift of life. Then nothing will stand in the way of your prayers.” (I Peter 3:7) It is good for me always to be reminded to be thoughtful, as this does not come naturally. I am so very thankful to be married to Audrey, and will treat her with honor all the days of our life together as pilgrims on this earth.

Thank you Lord for this national day of gratitude. I am thankful for your Word and for you Spirit. Fill me and use me for your purposes today, and every day.

November 23, 2011

“Be alert and think straight. Put all your hope in how kind God will be to you when Jesus Christ appears.” (I Peter 1:13, Common English Version) This is the scripture for today in the One Year Bible, and it is my theme for Sunday’s message. This week is the first Sunday of Advent, with the traditional theme of hope. Last Sunday my message was on Thanksgiving with Hope, and Sunday my title is Waiting with Hope. To be alert, to think straight and to put all my hope in how kind God will be to me when Jesus Christ appears could be the heart of Sunday’s message.

My approach during these almost 30 years of pastoring has been to daily read and meditate upon the scriptures, specifically to hear God speak to me, to feed my soul, and to frame my day in God’s will. I am careful not to read scripture only looking for sermon ideas. But on days like today, when my theme has long been established, and the daily reading speaks directly to that theme, there is a great merging of pastoral preparation and personal practice of holy living. So what does it mean for Bruce Baxter to be alert and think straight?

Audrey and I have awakened early on this day before Thanksgiving. The house was stuffy with the thermostat set to 71. We should keep it overnight to 68 or lower. It is programmable, but that always seems so complicated. I might revisit my attempt to maximize its capability by programming it. Just like the thermostat, each of us humans has greater capacity than we normally use. Often it is great calamity or conflict that draws the most out of us. My opportunity, and the same for each living person is to every day live to the fullest, in ways that please God. Today is the first day of the rest of my life, and I will take a “long view of this short life.”

In Mark 13:32-37 Jesus says “take heed, be on the alert, … it is like a man away on a journey…put his slaves in charge, assigning to each one his task.” It is so easy to lose the alertness necessary to please God. Jesus said “be wise as serpants and harmless as doves.” Watching, paying attention, noticing what is happening all around is the instruction of Jesus to his disciples, and in Peter’s letter to believers who did not know Jesus in the flesh. My message to Christ followers and to seekers is to pay attention, think straight and wait with hope for the return of Jesus Christ, and to the present working of God in the world.

Henry Blackaby wrote Experiencing God and his main theme was for the reader to look around and observe what God is doing in the world, and to jump in and participate.

“Behave like obedient children. Don’t let your lives be controlled by your desires, as they used to be. Always live as God’s holy people should, because God is the one who chose you, and he is holy.” (I Peter 1:14-15) In verse 24 Peter reminds the reader that the scripture says “Humans wither like grass and their glory fades like wild flowers… but what the Lord as said will stand forever.” I will be officiating at a funeral on Saturday of a man who died Monday morning of a heart attack, after leading an 8 o’clock meeting at his office. I am very conscious that on any given day, Christ might return, or this human heart might stop beating. Guide me today Lord as I seek to be alert and think straight, putting all my hope in how kind you will be to me when Jesus Christ appears.

November 22, 2011

My body feels the effects of 28,000 paces yesterday, and I am ready for the week ahead. Yesterday I ran 7 and did 70 minutes on the elliptical for an equivalent of 14mile run. I mowed the front lawn, worked around the house, installed a bookcase in the basement and finished the evening by watching a 1997 movie with Audrey. Today’s schedule is busy, with worship planning, staff meeting with Ann G. around communication, followed by executive staff meeting. I will get to the office early, and since I wrote my pastor’s pen yesterday, I will get a jump on the day.

Psalm 119:17-32

“Open my eyes, that I may behold wonderful things from Your law.” (Verse 18) The life of a person who is following God must be an ongoing openness to revelation. God continues to show His children “wonderful things”. A real key is to be a hearer and a doer of God’s word (as James reminds us.) In the church there are those who attend Bible studies for ever, yet do not bear fruit for the kingdom. As I study God’s word using the One Year Bible format, I am daily beholding wonderful things, and seeking to live them.

“I am a stranger in the earth” (Verse 19) as where the Pilgrims who, seeking religious freedom, ended up in New England. On this Tuesday in the Ozarks it is good for me to remember that I also am a stranger in the earth, and that this world is not my home. This brief journey, even if it lasts 100 years is as a dream when one awakes. This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

“I shall run the way of your commandments, for you will enlarge my heart” (Verse 32). As I train for a February marathon, and as I plan to run the Turkey trot on Thursday, the metaphor of running is daily familiar. I do not have a conscious memory of including this verse with the great “running” verses of scripture, such as Hebrews 12:1 and Isaiah 40:31. As in training one’s physical body through running, the heart grows stronger, so in obeying God’s commandments, God strengthens and enlarges one’s heart.

Lord, may my eyes be opened and my heart enlarged as I live out your word on this November day in Missouri. Guide my words, thoughts and actions that they may glorify you.

November 21, 2011

Carl Edwards is an inspiration. Yesterday he finished second at Homestead Florida to Tony Stewart, and the two tied for the Sprint Cup Championship series. The tiebreaker went to Stewart who won 5 of the last 10 races. In mid-afternoon, I decided to go to the gym and workout, rather than sit on the couch and watch the rest of the race. Edwards is a great competitor, and a genuinely great person. He trains hard physically, and competes earnestly. God has not called me to be a spectator or a fan, but a disciple and a son who is inheriting the kingdom. Even as I appreciate the efforts of Carl Edwards, my goal is to fully maximize the life and possibilities of Bruce Baxter. This involves saying no to many things, in order to say yes to the possibilities for God’s best.

James 5

Verses 1-6 are addressed to rich people, who have “lived on earth in luxury and self-indulgence. You have fattened yourselves in the day of slaughter.” In many ways this describes the last several decades of life in the United States. Obesity is one of the major problems. Luxury and self-indulgence are so normal that it goes unnoticed until this writer from the New Testament era points it out. Lately I have considered the content of two books: Rich Christians in an Age of Hunger and When Helping Hurts. Both point out the dilemma of Christ-followers who have plenty in an era when a billion people go to bed hungry.

“Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord’s coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop. … you too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. (verses 7-8) I must everyday live in the context of the return of Christ. For whether His second coming is in my lifetime or not, my days on earth are limited, and my opportunities to spread the kingdom are finite. Expecting His return is the best way to live, and to guard against luxury and self-indulgence.

“Don’t grumble against one another, brothers and sisters, or you will be judged. (Verse 9) In many churches there is “grumbling against one another.” This is one reason so many younger believers leave the church. I do not think that the grumblers realize the full consequences of their complaining and expressions of unhappiness. Guard me Lord from being a grumbler.

“As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.” (Verse 11) I endeavor to persevere. I have seen too many people throw up their hands and bail. Throughout scripture there are admonitions and examples of perseverance.

Thank you Lord for your Word today. Guide me as one who perseveres, who avoids luxury, self-indulgence, and grumbling. May my life be a blessing to You, reflecting Your character and divine nature. As I live out my earthly days, now in this 55 year-old body, in my 29th year as a husband and as a pastor, use me according to your plan and purposes. Use me up completely, may I hear your words at the end “well done good and faithful servant.”

November 19, 2011

Today is almost the last day of deer season. I have not heard any reports on how the harvest is going, given the weather we have had. However, “hunting around” on the internet, I have discovered that so far there have been 208,000 deer taken, with two days to go, compared with 188,000 for all of last year. Some year I might join the hunt. Bethany’s opening night for Falstaff was last night, and as we were sitting in a full Kickapoo auditorium watching Shannon in “The Phantom of the Opera”, I was thinking about Bethany’s opera, and her leading role, and wishing I could have been there also.

James 3

“…no one can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing.” (James 3:8-10) There is so much truth and wisdom in this chapter concerning the self-control of what a person says. For me, one of the early signs of my conversion was the elimination of cursing from my daily speech. It happened almost overnight, as I heard the foul expressions coming out of my mouth, and they injured my soul. The Holy Spirit did the work on my heart, and my tongue was tamed. It now remains for me to always be careful what I say, that I might use wisdom and grace and kindness in speaking.

I have the privilege of speaking publicly every week, and tomorrow I will be speaking about Thanksgiving with Hope. I pray that the words of my mouth will be acceptable in God’s sight, and will be a blessing to the hearers. Hope is the anchor of the soul.

Most precious eternal Word, live in me that I might live. Speak in me that I might speak. Fill me that I might overflow with your love, kindness, patience and joy.

November 18, 2011

“Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because our anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.” (James 1:19-20) “Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.” (Verse 22) These are two very practical, very direct instructions. It is easy for me to begin applying them to everyone else. First I must examine my own conduct, and see if there are any areas where I am not listening well, and settings in which I become angry. I will ponder this. I must also be introspective and consider what portions of the Word I might be merely listening to, but not doing. James if famous for saying “faith without works is dead”.

Today Lord, guide my steps as I work in the office on my sermon, on weekend preparations, on planning and organizing, and then as I go to attend the funeral of a beloved father of two sisters who are members at Wesley. Thank you for yesterday, with its meetings, planning, pastoral phones calls, etc.

November 17, 2011

This is the coldest morning of the season (25 degrees). I must unhook the hoses, so the faucets do not freeze. Yesterday was a good day. Continuing from Tuesday I experienced being mildly melancholy, which is somewhat unusual for this optimistic, hopeful soul. I am not sure what the factors were that contributed to this feeling, but certainly they include the gloomy weather, the aftermath of church conference, the upcoming holiday season. Perhaps I experienced a “trough of low pressure” (in weather terminology) sweeping across my soul. I pushed through the day, including pushing through the 5 mile run with Bill in the 41 degree windswept afternoon. So this morning after a decent night’s sleep, and with the sun on the horizon I feel much more buoyant than yesterday. It is good for me to walk through these feelings, and come out on the other side.

James 1:1-18

James is an extremely helpful and relevant book of the Bible, an open letter written to the church by James, the “half brother” of Jesus, and a leader of the church in Jerusalem.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” (James 1:2-3) In the relatively safe and secure environment in which I live, it is so different from the dangerous, persecuted, impoverished life of the recipients of this epistle. And, I can apply these verses to my life, what I have experienced in the last couple of days, and to the lives of all who follow Christ, as there will be trials of many kinds. Perhaps there is the false notion that if a person is really pleasing God, that He will make life easy and pleasant. Sometimes this is true, and often the genuine, true believer will face difficult trials.

Guide me today Lord as I lead by serving you and shepherding your flock in Springfield. Guide my thinking, my planning, my praying, and my schedule. Use me in the lives of people who are facing trials of many kinds. May I please You in all I say and do.

November 16, 2011

Jesus, the unchanging Savior, expects His followers to live a life of love.(Hebrews 13) This love includes all people, leads to purity in marriage, doe not love money, imitates worthy leaders, and centers on the unchanging Christ. (notes from my dad’s Disciple’s Study Bible) This book of Hebrews is more a sermon than an epistle. Addressed to the Jewish followers of Christ, its teaching are rich with moving from the old testatment history and traditions to the new covenant God has made through His Son. This last chapter has the application for the believer.

Verse 17 exhorts the readers to “obey your leaders and submit to their authority … so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you.” I observe that for many pastors their work is a burden. Leading the flock in ways that are outwardly focused and call for faith stretching out of the comfort zone meets resistance in many ways. This one verse fires a laser of light down through the ages to facilitate a better way of being the people of God. Bishop Schnase describes resistance not as a problem to be solved, but as information to be considered. Recently I conversed with a pastor who has led his congregation through tough times, and a few entrenched people are calling for his replacement. His pastoring continues as a burden, not a joy. Oh to see the body of Christ submitted to its Lord, and supportive of its pastors!

It is good to be home, to have the gas fire burning, and to be preparing for a day of pastoral ministry. Yesterday I drove home from the gathering of pastors in Osage Beach, and worked at the office and then at home. Audrey and I went for a 40 minute walk. Today I have a 7:30 am breakfast, worship planning, a book study at lunch, a conversation with our college age pastor, a run late in the afternoon, and then a meeting with a couple this evening. Between these appointments I will be working on sermon prep, and my fourth role as lead pastor.

Guide me today, most holy Lord as I serve You and shepherd the flock called Wesley. Use my thoughts, energy, compassion, and diligence to bear eternal fruit. Lead me into Your joy as I prepare to preach about hope and Thanksgiving.

November 15, 2011

“Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. See that no one is sexually immoral, or is godless like Esau, who for a single meal sold his inheritance rights as the oldest son.” (Hebrews 12:14-16)

Such practical, specific instructions – live at peace, don’t let bitterness take root, guard against sexual immorality. As I read them in the peace of this 5 am devotion in my room at this lovely resort, they seem obvious and easy. And I know that in the crush of life these three are significant fruits of God’s Holy Spirit at work in the life of the believer. I want my life to continue to be an open book, in which I live transparently and exemplary as a follower of Christ. With every ounce of my being I reject any form of pretense or pretending to be religious. I believe this will further the cause of Christ through my ministry.

The next generation values authenticity. It is often in short supply in the church. I am reading You Lost Me, by David Kinnaman in which he describes the journey of many young adults who grew up in the church and are no longer part of a faith community. His thesis is that there are things that the church does which “loses” individuals in their teens and twenties. I am looking forward to digesting the thoughts of this book, and also participating tomorrow in a book study with pastors at Ridgecrest.

Guide me today Lord as I make every effort to live at peace with everyone and to be holy. From the role of pastoring a wonderful and large church in Springfield, guide me as I seek your face and lead by following in your steps.

November 14, 2011

It is odd weather for November. Overnight the temperature rose 10 degrees from midnight on. I travel to Tan Tar A today for a meeting with the bishop and other pastors of large churches. I might ride the Concours, even though there is an outside chance of rain tomorrow, and we are in the middle of deer season. This morning I have a mind to throw my running gear on and get a long run in, even before daylight.

Hebrews 11:32- 12:13

The last verses of the Faith Chapter, Hebrews 11 lead directly in to chapter 12 which begins: “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

I have always found great inspiration in these verses. As a runner, I fix my attention on the goal, and run with perseverance. Today that will be 130 minutes, 65 out and whatever it takes to get back. I will leave at the break of daylight, here in about 15 minutes. I will meditate upon Christ as I run, and upon the passages from Ezekiel, Psalms and Proverbs.

Last night Audrey and I watched a movie we rented from Red Box entitled Of Gods and Men. It centers on the monastery of Tibhirine, where nine Trappist monks lived in harmony with the largely Muslim population of Algeria, until seven of them were kidnapped and assassinated in 1996 during the Algerian Civil War. It was in French, and the main characters were Trappists, who live under a vow of silence, so there was not a lot of dialogue. It was inspiring, as toward the end the monks considered the incarnation of Christ, and their decision to stay put, even as they realized their lives were at risk.

Guide me today Lord as I run with perseverance the race that You have set before me, fixing my mind and heart upon You, the author and perfecter of faith. Let your joy be my joy today, most holy Lord.

November 13, 2011

“See what love the Father has given us, that we should be called children of God; and that is what we are.” I John 3:1-3. The apostle John wrote this near the end of his life, probably as the lone surviving disciple from the original 12. His goal in this letter was to teach about love and to give confidence to the followers of Christ, that they were in fact loved, and called to love one another.

As a pastoral leader in the church, I want to teach and model this love that Jesus lived, and that He has called each of us in his body to replicate. It almost sounds too soupy or ethereal to say that we are called to love one another. Verse 18 smacks this directly: “Little children, let us love, not in word or speech, but in truth and action.” The example of adoptive parents is truly love in action – taking all the physical, emotional and financial needs of children and giving themselves to meeting these needs. AS followers of Christ, in the church we must do the same. This is a challenge in churches of all sizes. I am currently experiencing the challenges in the context of the very large church. There is a way to live this out and today I have the opportunities that will be present through Wesley and the morning of worship and service.

Having gone to bed early last night, I am rested and ready for the day, even at this early hour. When I arise while the clock says 4 something, I almost always think of John Wesley and his early and vigorous schedule. I will read scripture, pray, work on my sermon, and get ready for this morning of pastoral ministry.

Guide me holy Lord as I seek to love with the love which you have for me and all your children.

November 11, 2011

“Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith… Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” (Hebrews 10:22-23) Yes! After last night’s contentious church conference, I need these pure words of scripture, with the writer’s encouragement to draw near to God and to hold unswervingly to the hope of the resurrection and the kingdom of God which is coming.
Jesus has taken our sins upon himself, and as he lived the life of a teaching, healing, life-giving Rabbi, he faced much opposition, mainly from religious people. Martin Luther, John Wesley, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, all faced opposition from people firmly rooted in religious tradition. For every Christ-follower, the challenge is to draw near to God, to hold firmly to the hope, and to act boldly to bring about change.

“Let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.” (Verse 24) All of us need to be “spurred on toward love and good deeds.” There is within the human heart a desire to settle, to stay where it is comfortable, and to allow the inertia of inactivity to control. The King James Version (400 years old this year!) translates this verb as “let us provoke one another…” In modern usage, the word “provoke” is rarely viewed in positive light, it is almost always negative. And I think that every believer needs to be provoked to love and to do good deeds.

Guide me today, Holy Lord as I serve you with joy, drawing near with a sincere heart, holding fast to the hope, because you are faithful. Open my eyes that I may see, glimpses of truth you have for me. Place in my hands the wonderful key that shall unclasp and set me free. Silently now I wait for thee, ready my God, Thy will to see, Spirit divine! (Words from hymn by Clara H. Scott, 1841-1897)

November 10, 2011

Joe Paterno was fired yesterday at the age of 84 as the head football coach of Penn State. A news commentator this morning has likened College Football to church for many people, and this alleged sexual abuse of boys by an assistant coach similar to the cover up in the Catholic Church. The preservation of the institution and beloved leaders has displaced the protection of young lives and their well-being.

Last night Rick Perry made a blunder in the republican presidential debate as he lost his train of thought when stating he would eliminate three agencies of government, forgetting the third agency, which this morning he said was the Energy department. The field of 8 candidates continues to head toward the Iowa caucuses and next year’s primary race for the White House.

Yesterday at Wesley we had a very good staff meeting, an evening program of celebrating Veterans, and I also attended the college-aged ministries led by Matt Kerner at the St. Paul church. At noon I ran 6 miles in 56:10 (9:22/mile) with Bill McCurry. Today we have our annual church conference led by our superintendent Dwight Chapman.

Hebrews 10:1-17

“It is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins.” (Verse 4) This section of Hebrews describes the death of Jesus on the cross as being a once-and-for-all sacrifice for sins for all time. “By one offering He has perfected for all time those who are sanctified.” (Verse 14) Beginning in verse 1, the writer has addressed the topic of the perfection, or completion of those who draw near to God. I am most thankful for the emphasis Wesley placed upon God’s perfecting work in the believer. Today as I go about this beautiful autumn day, my meditation will be upon the fact that “we have been sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.” (Verse10)

May my life Lord be a continued response to your sacrifice as I live to please and serve You, representing You in this fallen world. Through the church, in the community and to the ends of the world may my life glorify You and it is changed from glory unto glory, evermore transformed into your image.

November 9, 2011

I am up and getting ready for a 7:30 am breakfast. Audrey is up and the cats are confused. Today will be a fairly typical Wednesday, with the addition of the Veterans dinner tonight. It will be our first Wednesday night dinner since May. We will have our executive staff meeting, and we will continue preparing for tomorrow’s church conference.

Psalm 107

This Psalm ends with verse 43 “Let all who are wise heed these things and ponder the loving deeds of the Lord.” The gist of this scripture is found in verse 1 “Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.” As I prepare for this season of Thanksgiving, this Psalm could be a great source of teaching and inspiration. It recounts many of the ways that God has provided for his people over the years.

Last night our life group began a study of a book called The Advent Conspiracy, which is an attempt to put Christ at the heart of Christmas, and to provide an avenue for his followers to get out of the rut of consumerism. The premise of the book is pretty simple: worship fully, spend less, give more, and love all. This is a great reminder and a way to practice one’s faith in Christ during the holiday season.

Guide me today, most holy Lord in all that I do, say, think, plan, and give.

November 8, 2011

Yesterday I accomplished three significant goals – I ran the equivalent of 12 miles (6 on the road, plus 60 minutes on the elliptical), I replaced the leaking valve on our hot water heater, and I changed the oil and filter on the Concours. My body is sore (in a good way) from the workout, the leaking hot water heater is now leak-free (started leaking last winter), and after 6000 miles my motorcycle has new oil, but it was leaking a little from the oil filter, which I probably will have to reinstall.

I retired early, and continued reading the biography on Jefferson Davis. I am up to 1862 as the writer describes his pursuit of the civil war on all fronts. The local Wilson’s Creek battle was mentioned as an early victory for the south. In retrospect the brutalities and losses of war seem so stupid. The gallantry and heroics are appealing to boys and men, but the death, destruction, and ruin are tragic. However, the reality is that humanity is prone to fight and kill; a well-trained, well-resourced military is necessary for defense and protection. As we celebrate veterans’ day this week, I am thankful for those who have served, and those currently in uniform.

Hebrews 9 – The True Tabernacle

The writer describes the earthly tabernacle, given by God to Moses and for the people. This tabernacle had an outer area where people worshipped and brought their sacrifices, and an inner, holy of holies area that once a year the high priest entered, covered with blood for his own sins and the sins of the people. In verse 24 the writer continues: “For Christ did not enter a holy place made with hands, a mere copy of the true one, but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God for us now was it that He should offer Himself often, as the high priest enters the holy place year by year with blood not his own. … So Christ also, having been offered once to bear the sins of many, shall appear a second time for salvation without reference to sin, to those who eagerly await Him.

Lord, I eagerly await your appearance a second time. Living between your first and second appearance is a joy and a responsibility to share your gospel with all who will receive it. It is so incredible that you died for me, your holy life for my sinful soul. May my life be a testimony of your grace, today and every day.

November 7, 2011

I am still benefitting from the extra hour this weekend due to the time change. I am always amazed at how much difference an hour makes, both in the fall and then in the spring. Yesterday was a very good day of worship, communion, and fellowship. In the afternoon and evening I rested, read more of Cooper’s biography of Jefferson Davis, made some phone calls, and watched parts of a movie with Audrey. Today I will utilize this day off to get in a 12 mile run, work around the garage and basement, and perhaps start writing our family Christmas letter.

Hebrews 8

Jesus is the high priest, made perfect forever. He has taken his seat at the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in the heavens, a minister in the sanctuary, and in the true tabernacle, which the Lord pitched, not man. (Verses 1-2) The earthly tabernacle, constructed by Moses as a result of a vision when he was on the mountain, and the systems of the “old” covenant are imperfect, a shadow of the reality of heaven.

Jesus is the “mediator of a better covenant, which has been enacted on better promises. For if that first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no occasion sought for a second.” (6,7) The writer of Hebrews proceeds to quote at length from the prophet Jeremiah, chapter 31, verses 31-34 in which there is the promise of a new covenant. God says: "I will put my laws into their minds, and I will write them upon their hearts. And I will be their God, and they shall be my people.”

We are now living in the days of this new covenant. I have the privilege of ministering, serving under the better covenant, as have all believers since the day of Pentecost. Serving as a pastor at Wesley church, I see God in the person of the Holy Spirit writing his word upon people’s hearts. Guide me holy Lord as I serve you during this brief earthly journey, until I take my place before the throne of the Majesty in the heavens. May this day be a day filled with your grace as I breathe in your love and live fully through this gray November Monday.

November 6, 2011

My goal this morning is to teach and demonstrate that the purpose of worship is to focus upon God and to get our focus off ourselves. In the sanctuary we will sing “O Worship the King”, “Glorify Thy Name”, “Majesty, Worship His Majesty”, and close with “Take Our Bread”. In the gym we will sing “Today is the Day”, “My Jesus I Love Thee”, “Consuming Fire”, and close with “The Heart of Worship”.


I love this Sunday on which we set our clocks back one hour. On a normal morning, this would be 6:20 am. As a pastor I always find Sunday mornings too short, and the time seems to go by too fast. So, I will read scripture, pray, worship and study my sermon as I prepare to lead worship for 1000 people this morning in four worship services.

Psalm 150

Praise the Lord! Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty firmament. Praise him for his mighty deeds; praise him according to his surpassing greatness! Thus the Psalmist begins the final Psalm in the Hebrew worship book. This morning I will be teaching about worship, and telling the Matt Redmon story of his writing “The Heart of Worship”. John Wesley wrote “Christ the Lord is Risen Today.”Charles Wesley wrote thousands of worship songs. Martin Luther wrote “A Mighty Fortress is Our God.” Rick Warren begins his classic “Purpose Driven Life” with the sentence “It is not about me.”


On this first Sunday in November, I am looking forward to the faith community gathering, to celebrating the Eucharist, and to expending all my energy in ministry. Guide me Holy Lord, in your surpassing greatness as this servant seeks to glorify thy Name in all the earth.

November 5, 2011

11-5-11 Saturday, 8:31 am Springfield, 45 degrees, cloudy

It is fully November - A gray sky, muted colors and cold. This is one of Audrey’s favorite months, and together we enjoy very much this feel of autumn and preparation for the holidays. Today I will work on my sermon, work on preparations for Thursday’s church conference, exercise, and contact three folks as their pastor. Yesterday I made three pastoral calls, including one nursing home, one “homeless” couple, and one couple in their home. I appreciate the flexibility of a pastor’s schedule, and a key to fruitfulness is using days such as this without meetings to accomplish the roles and make progress toward the goals on one’s missional job description. This is my 29th year as a pastor, and I am growing, learning, challenged, and fruitful. It is hard work, and for those who are called, God supplies exactly what is needed.

Hebrews 7:1-17

As the writer in chapter 6 introduced the concept of Jesus as “a high priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek”, he writes more completely about Melchizedek and the office of high priest in this 7th chapter.

In Genesis chapter 14 the account is given of Abram using his 318 trained men to chase down the kings who raided Sodom and abducted Lot. Upon the recovery Lot and all the other people from Sodom along with their goods which had also been stolen, the king of Sodom went out to meet Abram, and “Melchizedek king of Salem brought out bread and wine; now he was a priest of God Most High.” According to the writer of Hebrews, Melchizedek was “without father or mother, without genealogy, without beginning of days or end of life, resembling the Son of God, he remains a priest forever.” (Verse 3)

Tomorrow I am preaching about worship, that it is more than music, more than money, more than Sunday morning. I will incorporate this incident with Abram and Melchizedek in the section about worship being more than money. The fact that Abram gave him a tenth of the plunder implies faith and worship. Melchizedek preceded the Levitical priesthood. He became “a priest not on the basis of a regulation as to his ancestry but on the basis of the power of an indestructible life.” (verse 16)

Guide me today most Holy Lord as I serve You alone, filling the role of pastor through the faith community called Wesley United Methodist Church here in Springfield, in the waning days of 2011. Guide my sermon preparation, my phone calls, my writing, my discernment that your kingdom may come and your will be done today through me.

November 4, 2011

11-4-11 Friday, 4:54 am Springfield, 38 degrees, clear

It is good to be up early. I am looking forward to the time change this weekend, not only because we essentially “gain” an hour, but also because the sun will rise an hour earlier. These days the sun is not even up at 7:40. In the evening, the sun will set an hour earlier, around 5:15 making for longer evenings.

Hebrews 6

“Let us press on to maturity…” The opening verse of this chapter leads the reader to consider the discipleship pathway, the pursuit of a “grown up faith”. This is one of the strong emphases of my teaching and leading, that each of us who follow Christ must be growing in our walk. For the writer of Hebrews, in verse one he cautions readers to not be “laying again a foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith toward God, of instructions about washings, and laying on of hands, and the resurrection of the dead and eternal judgment.” (Verses 1-2)

Verses 18-19 encourage us to take hold of the hope that is set before us. “We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.” I treasure this metaphor of hope being the anchor of the soul. Without hope there is drifting and uncertainty and no direction. With hope, even in the midst of a storm there is the expectation that beyond what can be seen, a better future exists. On Sunday preceding Thanksgiving my sermon topic is “Thanksgiving and Hope”, and I am looking forward to examining the ways that hope shapes one’s outlook and daily living.

Guide me today most holy Lord as I live with the hope of life with You inside the curtain. May my steps be ordered by you, my thoughts taken captive by you, my words be according to your will and purposes.

November 2, 2011

11-2-11 Wednesday, 7:00 am Springfield, 50 degrees.

Our life group was a good experience last night. Having arisen at 4:45, run 3 miles, and worked all day, I was not necessarily looking forward to going. Audrey got sick in the afternoon and was not able to attend. There were ten of us, mostly in our 40s and 50s at various places along life's journey. We caught up on each other’s lives and finished the six-part study on Weird. We will begin an Advent study next week.

Today will be a fairly normal Wednesday, with the addition of my attending the 8:30 pm college student worship service downtown. I have not yet attended this service which began the end of August. We have our church conference next week, and I am thankful that we have a strong pastoral and staff team to prepare for this. Lonely were the days when it was all on my shoulders to prepare for the annual church conference as the solo pastor of a couple of small churches, or as the lead pastor of a new church start (SunRise in O’Fallon).

Hebrews 4

The great theme of this chapter is “entering His rest”. And this rest is great and different from the rest that Joshua led the Israelites into when they occupied the Promised Land. The first verse says: “Therefore, let us fear lest, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you should seem to have come short of it.” This rest is multifaceted, and the heart of it appears to be resting from our striving earn or do, and accepting the provision that God has offered. The last verse of the chapter says: “Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need.” What a balanced chapter! Beginning with words such as fear, promise, coming short; it ends with the words grace, mercy, help in time of need. This is the longing of the human heart, the desire of the human condition.

Verse 12 is a great statement and reminder about the characteristics of the word of God. “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” I have found this to be accurate and true about the Bible, the word of God. I need the thoughts and intentions of my heart exposed regularly by the living and active word. Every day I open myself to God by reading His word, and gain confidence to draw near to the throne of grace.

Guide me today, holy Word made flesh that my thoughts and intentions, my soul and spirit laid open before You may be shaped, molded, fashioned, and applied to building Your kingdom, furthering Your cause in this short finite time of my earthly existence. This world seems so secure, with sturdy houses and all our needs met – food, clothing, shelter, security. And I realize how temporal this all is in light of Your coming kingdom and reign over all things. Help me live today for eternity.

November 1, 2011

11-1-11 Tuesday, 5:40 am Springfield, 49 degrees.

Yesterday I successfully completed 11 miles but it wasn’t pretty. I ran the Greenway from National and Sunshine west, through the park near Horton Smith, etc. I averaged 10:15 a mile for the first half, and about 11:50 a mile for the second half. My body feels the aftermath of this effort. Last night was a pleasant evening of receiving Trick or Treaters. Families came by as Audrey and I sat on our driveway with a fire burning in our portable fireplace. The pleasant smell of pine filled the neighborhood. Today I have a typical Tuesday, with a couple of extra meetings in the afternoon. Tonight our life group meets.

Hebrews 3
Jesus, “the apostle and high priest of our confession” is compared and contrasted with Moses. Both were faithful to Him who appointed them. “Moses was faithful in all his house as a servant…but Christ was faithful as a Son over His house whose house we are, if we hold fast our confidence and the boast of our hope firm until the end.” (Verses 5-6) The writer of Hebrews compares and contrasts Jesus with angels in chapters 1-2, and here in chapter 3 with Moses. Writing to a predominately Jewish audience, this author is building a strong case for Christ.

Verses 12-19 provide personal application for the teaching. “Take care, brethren, lest there should be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving heart, in falling away from the living God. But encourage one another day after day, as long as it is still called ‘Today,’ lest any one of you be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. For we have become partakers of Christ, if we hold fast the beginning of our assurance firm until the end.” (Verses 12-14)

Guide me today, Holy Son of God, precious Lord, as I encourage your followers through the pastoral ministry. May I be faithful in all your house as a servant, building up the body with love and sound doctrine. Use my words, my actions, my thoughts, my planning to glorify your holy name, and bring many to your saving grace, rescued from the deceitfulness of sin.

October 31, 2011

10-31-11 Monday, 7:30 am Springfield, 34 degrees.

Ruth Madoff and her son Andrew are being interviewed on the news about the pain and loss caused by the 65 billion dollar ponzi scheme perpetrated by Bernie Madoff which was discovered in December, 2008. What a tragedy all around, with the suicide last year of one of the sons, and the 1000s of victims who lost their life savings. As the economy tanked in 2008, Madoff’s clients who had invested with him because of his excellent rate of return, learned that there was no investment, it was all an illusion and they were left with nothing. I imagine that this has caused many investors to wonder if their retirement accounts are real or imaginary. It also raises the issue of this world and the next, what is really valuable and what will disappear when the son of God is revealed.

Hebrews 1-2

Hebrews is one of my favorite books of the Bible. I studied it in depth in seminary, and still draw upon that work. I look forward to reading it a chapter a day for the next couple of weeks. In chapter one the author states that God, who long ago spoke to the fathers in the prophets has spoken in these last days to us in His Son. “He is the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature, and upholds all things by the word of His power” (verse 3). This stirs within me the desire to worship God with praise and thanksgiving for sending His son and revealing Him to us.

“We must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, lest we drift away from it.” (2:1) Yesterday in my sermon I mentioned the possibility of drift, and how easy it is to lose the reference point on a shoreline. I proposed that the cross is the best possible reference point for the life of a believer. Also in chapter 2 the writer compares Jesus to angels, and states the unique role he fulfilled as he was tempted and suffered as do the children of flesh and blood.

Thank you Lord for revealing to your servants truths about Your kingdom. Guide me on this beautiful autumn day as I live in this world but not of it, pushing my body in a long run and communing with you as friend to friend. Draw me nearer precious Lord.